So, Brittany Murphy is the latest celeb death... I sure hope she didn't OD like everyone in Hollywood tends to. The latest gossip states flu like symptoms. I hope it wasn't H1N1. People of 32 don't usually just kick the bucket,not even diabetics.
Someone even had the guts to say that because she has a hit single with Paul Oakenfold, she must be a druggie. Not everyone who listens or produces trance or other electronic stuff takes drugs ffs! I have NEVER taken drugs, not even weed. Fuckers. Excuse the language.
Everyone's going on about Brittany's movies and how she was a talented actress and a singer too, but I remember her only as the troubled kid in Prophecy II.. is that lame?
Monday
Oof, Sickness Is Rising..
I haven't been on for awhile and have a good reason..
Swine flu, aka spanish flu aka (A)H1N1 - (spanish flu according to conspiracy theories)
Swine flu was pretty easy:
- just like your regular influenza.
However, I have asthma, so I took it seriously.
Got Tamiflu, five days.
After five days went to the doctor, complaining difficulty to breathe, diagnosis: my asthma had gotten worse.
Got Prednisolon, five days. Double dosage of Symbicort.
Went to the doctor, complaining difficulty to breathe. Went for x-rays, blood tests, EKG.
Diagnosis: pneumonia.
Got Amoxillin, ten days
Feeling much better now, but still have this horrible weakness and it's still hard to breathe..
I'm happy to be alive, though. Most people who have died had something wrong with their lungs..
Swine flu, aka spanish flu aka (A)H1N1 - (spanish flu according to conspiracy theories)
Swine flu was pretty easy:
- Fever went up to 38,7 (centigrade) in a few hours
- Dry cough
- Headache (worse than migraine)
- Pressure on chest
- Muscle weakness
- Tiredness
- just like your regular influenza.
However, I have asthma, so I took it seriously.
Got Tamiflu, five days.
After five days went to the doctor, complaining difficulty to breathe, diagnosis: my asthma had gotten worse.
Got Prednisolon, five days. Double dosage of Symbicort.
Went to the doctor, complaining difficulty to breathe. Went for x-rays, blood tests, EKG.
Diagnosis: pneumonia.
Got Amoxillin, ten days
Feeling much better now, but still have this horrible weakness and it's still hard to breathe..
I'm happy to be alive, though. Most people who have died had something wrong with their lungs..
Thursday
The Teach
I had a short streak of substitute teaching at the local business school. That week drained energy from me like a troupé of vampires. A killer week. The students were still in their teens, but hell, they were acting like we used to - in pre school! All the swearing, teasing, it was hellish. Half the time I spent telling them off. Note, these were people who are supposed to enter real adult life next year, with work and responsibilities!
I'll never do that again. I'd rather live of J's money. Sorry, J.
I'll never do that again. I'd rather live of J's money. Sorry, J.
Monday
I Don't Want Them Here
They are called "social tourists" here. They are the ones who come to a country, claiming to be in danger in their own country (and they are, but mostly because they have done something wrong there). We have plenty of them. If they come here, they are entitled to over 800 euros and free housing for doing nothing. They come here, claim to be children (under 18) but refuse DNA testing to find out if they really are under age. They are the ones who don't work, study or try, they just hang out in their expensive clothes. They drive better cars that most of the people who pay for their living. They cause "white flight", they insist different rights, they insist their culture being more valuable than our own.
It's not good.
I'm not a racist. I have bad experience. Many, many bad, two good. The two good are: One boy who was adopted here as a baby and one girl who is half korean, half russian and has lived here from since she was six. She was my best friend in high school. Both of them are doing well in their life. Neither has committed a crime. Both are working. The rest? Scum. The statistics speak for themselves: foreigners commit most crimes compared to their numbers in country. They don't do anything. They don't try to learn our language. They don't study. They don't let their kids learn our language. They are NOT TRYING. And we are paying because we have idiots like Astrid Thors who haven't lived a day with these people and lives in some kind of an utopia.
What about Islam? The religion is good, there's nothing wrong with it. It defends good values. The ones who take a religion and twist it to their sick minds are to blame. The only bad thing about islam is the way they treat women - even if it's only the things mentioned in Qur'an, not the sick part. I don't want islam here, because I'm a woman and I don't want a person suffer because they don't have a penis. Women have suffered plenty already and men are still to pay for past things. Oh, and what about the western men who turn to islam? They are the ones who beat women and can't keep one who wants to think for herself.
I don't want them here. I just don't. Someone tell me a country that doesn't accept social tourists and I'm going there. There's no reason for me to work my ass out and pay these ridiculous taxes and walk in Helsinki and see these people hanging at the metro station, doing nothing, in their expensive designer clothes with the money we pay for our kids to go to free schools, have free medical services...
Please note: I have nothing against the people who are willing to speak our language, work or study and live the way we do here.
It's not good.
I'm not a racist. I have bad experience. Many, many bad, two good. The two good are: One boy who was adopted here as a baby and one girl who is half korean, half russian and has lived here from since she was six. She was my best friend in high school. Both of them are doing well in their life. Neither has committed a crime. Both are working. The rest? Scum. The statistics speak for themselves: foreigners commit most crimes compared to their numbers in country. They don't do anything. They don't try to learn our language. They don't study. They don't let their kids learn our language. They are NOT TRYING. And we are paying because we have idiots like Astrid Thors who haven't lived a day with these people and lives in some kind of an utopia.
What about Islam? The religion is good, there's nothing wrong with it. It defends good values. The ones who take a religion and twist it to their sick minds are to blame. The only bad thing about islam is the way they treat women - even if it's only the things mentioned in Qur'an, not the sick part. I don't want islam here, because I'm a woman and I don't want a person suffer because they don't have a penis. Women have suffered plenty already and men are still to pay for past things. Oh, and what about the western men who turn to islam? They are the ones who beat women and can't keep one who wants to think for herself.
I don't want them here. I just don't. Someone tell me a country that doesn't accept social tourists and I'm going there. There's no reason for me to work my ass out and pay these ridiculous taxes and walk in Helsinki and see these people hanging at the metro station, doing nothing, in their expensive designer clothes with the money we pay for our kids to go to free schools, have free medical services...
Please note: I have nothing against the people who are willing to speak our language, work or study and live the way we do here.
Sunday
Ghosts! No, really! I swear!
I've been watching Ghost Hunters on SyFy (Why did they change it from SciFi?). For many days, I've been annoyed by some of the things they often use:
"We actually had an actual apparition" - The word "actually" just so annoys me. It's like I'm lying but I'm trying to assure you I'm not lying.
"To be honest.." It's never honest. Anyone who ever says "To be honest, I.." is so lying..
"Honestly, I.." am lying. Yes.
There is some good evidence, but I know a place that has real haunting, real apparitions. There is one place Ghost Hunters International should visit:
+66° 22' 32.24", +25° 22' 53.88"
The place used to be small inn, with seven rooms in a separate building. It's been closed for years now, but I know six people who have had experiences there, me being one of them. I've been there at night, after closing, before opening, seen the kitchens, cabinet, etc.
I think I have mentioned the place before, but I'm starting to be pretty sure that place is really haunted. It even has a good story. While the germans were moving to the north to burn Rovaniemi, they had a camp there. It's not known if the story is true or not, but supposedly they raped and killed people there; women, children, men..
I'll list everything I've heard or seen myself:
A singer, who had a gig there, was having a drink after the doors closed. She heard children yelling and crying. She went and asked my mother (whom she knew very well) that if her kids (me and my kid sisters) were still up. We often slept in one of the rooms if our mother had to work late and the rooms were free. We were sleeping at home that night. The same singer had a beer bottle threwn at her later that night. Only, there was no one to throw stuff at her.
My mother had closed up and was counting the bottles, when she saw something walk by her. She thought that the bartender had returned for something and asked him what he had forgotten. She got no answer, but a beer bottle at the counter exploded. The bar tender had left the premises the moment he had finished work, so my mother was alone there.
It was daytime when my older kid sister went to our mother and said: "There's a man in the cabinet". Mother got upset because I was supposed to open the doors in half an hour and she thought I'd let someone in. She went to find the man and ask him to go outside, but didn't find anyone. I was sitting in the reception and she came to give me a shout. I told her to go check the door and the door was locked.
My youngest sister sat in a chair and talked to someone who wasn't there.
The cook heard banging, as if someone had been shooting inside. He went to check and nobody there...
I went to the cabinet, I was supposed to do something I guess, but I felt so uneasy there, like really uneasy. I got scared and ran away. I never got the nerve to go to the cabinet alone.
There were two hotel rooms that got the chills running down my spine. Room 1 was the finest room, a little honeymoon suite feeling to it. One day I was changing the sheets (because I had to work there sometimes) and had my back turned to door. There was this guy, who worked at the hotel and he was supposed to help me. So, I felt a hand pushing my shoulder and I thought he had come. I talked to him and when got no answer, I looked to see if he had Walkman on or hadn't heard me, but there was no one there. I went to see him and found him setting up glasses at the pub. Room seven was even creepier. We were sleeping there at one point and I woke up having my covers pulled off me. My kid sisters were sleeping next to me, but they weren't moving or pulling the covers. That room was so creepy anyway, I always had to sensation of being not welcome there.
The pub was scary as hell. Even with lights on, I was so scared there. It felt very hostile. I was doing my homework there one time, when I was sure someone was standing at the counter. I raised my eyes, but nothing. Just this evil, hostile feeling.
The fireplace room was creepy too. Often the workers saw someone walking by the counter, from the sauna to the main hall. For me, that place had the less creeps.
Oh yeah, and one of the employees, a guy in his twenties, was scared of being there alone. He got fired and killed himself later by jumping to a river.
Bangs, wailing, crying, footsteps, exploding beer bottles, people, shadows.. that place had everything!
I was eleven at that time, my mother was violent towards me and I was troubled. Poltergeist anyone?
I so want to go back there and spend a few nights hopefully with equipment, like cameras and stuff. It's a shame it's such a long drive from where I live, ten or so hours :(
I think that with all these investigations, they should use a catalyst..Which would be better than a tormented child?
"We actually had an actual apparition" - The word "actually" just so annoys me. It's like I'm lying but I'm trying to assure you I'm not lying.
"To be honest.." It's never honest. Anyone who ever says "To be honest, I.." is so lying..
"Honestly, I.." am lying. Yes.
There is some good evidence, but I know a place that has real haunting, real apparitions. There is one place Ghost Hunters International should visit:
+66° 22' 32.24", +25° 22' 53.88"
The place used to be small inn, with seven rooms in a separate building. It's been closed for years now, but I know six people who have had experiences there, me being one of them. I've been there at night, after closing, before opening, seen the kitchens, cabinet, etc.
I think I have mentioned the place before, but I'm starting to be pretty sure that place is really haunted. It even has a good story. While the germans were moving to the north to burn Rovaniemi, they had a camp there. It's not known if the story is true or not, but supposedly they raped and killed people there; women, children, men..
I'll list everything I've heard or seen myself:
A singer, who had a gig there, was having a drink after the doors closed. She heard children yelling and crying. She went and asked my mother (whom she knew very well) that if her kids (me and my kid sisters) were still up. We often slept in one of the rooms if our mother had to work late and the rooms were free. We were sleeping at home that night. The same singer had a beer bottle threwn at her later that night. Only, there was no one to throw stuff at her.
My mother had closed up and was counting the bottles, when she saw something walk by her. She thought that the bartender had returned for something and asked him what he had forgotten. She got no answer, but a beer bottle at the counter exploded. The bar tender had left the premises the moment he had finished work, so my mother was alone there.
It was daytime when my older kid sister went to our mother and said: "There's a man in the cabinet". Mother got upset because I was supposed to open the doors in half an hour and she thought I'd let someone in. She went to find the man and ask him to go outside, but didn't find anyone. I was sitting in the reception and she came to give me a shout. I told her to go check the door and the door was locked.
My youngest sister sat in a chair and talked to someone who wasn't there.
The cook heard banging, as if someone had been shooting inside. He went to check and nobody there...
I went to the cabinet, I was supposed to do something I guess, but I felt so uneasy there, like really uneasy. I got scared and ran away. I never got the nerve to go to the cabinet alone.
There were two hotel rooms that got the chills running down my spine. Room 1 was the finest room, a little honeymoon suite feeling to it. One day I was changing the sheets (because I had to work there sometimes) and had my back turned to door. There was this guy, who worked at the hotel and he was supposed to help me. So, I felt a hand pushing my shoulder and I thought he had come. I talked to him and when got no answer, I looked to see if he had Walkman on or hadn't heard me, but there was no one there. I went to see him and found him setting up glasses at the pub. Room seven was even creepier. We were sleeping there at one point and I woke up having my covers pulled off me. My kid sisters were sleeping next to me, but they weren't moving or pulling the covers. That room was so creepy anyway, I always had to sensation of being not welcome there.
The pub was scary as hell. Even with lights on, I was so scared there. It felt very hostile. I was doing my homework there one time, when I was sure someone was standing at the counter. I raised my eyes, but nothing. Just this evil, hostile feeling.
The fireplace room was creepy too. Often the workers saw someone walking by the counter, from the sauna to the main hall. For me, that place had the less creeps.
Oh yeah, and one of the employees, a guy in his twenties, was scared of being there alone. He got fired and killed himself later by jumping to a river.
Bangs, wailing, crying, footsteps, exploding beer bottles, people, shadows.. that place had everything!
I was eleven at that time, my mother was violent towards me and I was troubled. Poltergeist anyone?
I so want to go back there and spend a few nights hopefully with equipment, like cameras and stuff. It's a shame it's such a long drive from where I live, ten or so hours :(
I think that with all these investigations, they should use a catalyst..Which would be better than a tormented child?
Tuesday
Putin Says It's War For Finland
This woman, Rimma Salonen, married to finnish man, abducted their child to Russia. Mr. Salonen went to get the child back and they smuggled the child back in a consule car. The foreign minister, Stubb, didn't condemn the smuggling and Putin said in a statement: "by giving his support for the consular activities, the Finnish foreign minister hs put millions of innocent people in jeopardy.."
Russia is known to "feel the need to protect their citizens" with war-like actions before. Finland houses thousands of Russians today. See something there? Does anyone remember Georgia?
So, Russia doesn't give a shit what their consules do in Finland (they have probably forgotten the speeding and parking tickets, rapes and other crimes), but if a Finnish consul does the same thing, its war. Russia doesn't give a shit about the human rights, they don't give a shit about the earth, but if a Russian woman commits a crime in Finland and is brought to justice, it's war?
The last time these two countries were at war, RUSSIA started it by shooting an claiming that the Finns shot first. Now, I KNOW even Finns are not that stupid to shoot at a country with massive overpower?
Oh, and according to the newspapers, even Russians believe Putin is still the leader of the country, not Medvedev the Puppet. So, if Putin says it's war for Finland, they probably are already planning something.
And what hope do we have, then? Finland is full of wussy men who only play WoW. They would probably be the first to cross the borders to Sweden... Our parliament raises their own wages while cutting the funding for defense. We have about 30 helicopters when the Russians have 1500 or more. If they attack, the only possible military powers in the world will stay out of it to avoid oil crisis. Sweden will stay out if of course..
Like I've said before: If Russia attacks and if I go, I'll take a hundred with me.
Finland will never attack! First of all, we're not that stupid and second: we don't have the necessary men nor the equipment.
Russia is known to "feel the need to protect their citizens" with war-like actions before. Finland houses thousands of Russians today. See something there? Does anyone remember Georgia?
So, Russia doesn't give a shit what their consules do in Finland (they have probably forgotten the speeding and parking tickets, rapes and other crimes), but if a Finnish consul does the same thing, its war. Russia doesn't give a shit about the human rights, they don't give a shit about the earth, but if a Russian woman commits a crime in Finland and is brought to justice, it's war?
The last time these two countries were at war, RUSSIA started it by shooting an claiming that the Finns shot first. Now, I KNOW even Finns are not that stupid to shoot at a country with massive overpower?
Oh, and according to the newspapers, even Russians believe Putin is still the leader of the country, not Medvedev the Puppet. So, if Putin says it's war for Finland, they probably are already planning something.
And what hope do we have, then? Finland is full of wussy men who only play WoW. They would probably be the first to cross the borders to Sweden... Our parliament raises their own wages while cutting the funding for defense. We have about 30 helicopters when the Russians have 1500 or more. If they attack, the only possible military powers in the world will stay out of it to avoid oil crisis. Sweden will stay out if of course..
Like I've said before: If Russia attacks and if I go, I'll take a hundred with me.
Finland will never attack! First of all, we're not that stupid and second: we don't have the necessary men nor the equipment.
Thursday
Moral Responsibility of the Companies in Asia
So, the Chinese are stealing our jobs. Why? Because they are cheap. If they can have ten employees for the price of one in Sweden, that's where they're going. To maximise the profits of course.
Plus, China doesn't care about the environment, so their factories are pushing the same shit we're trying to get rid of. So instead of substituting more energy and environment efficient factories, companies move their production facilities to China. Nice work.
So, what should China and India do, then?
1. Demand education: If a mother is working in the factory, a factory nanny can take care of the children, so the children can play and not work at home or at some other place (like they do in India). Letting their children have at least the basic education is worth everything (at least future, skillful employees).
2. Pay or food. Employees would be paid for overtime or they are given enough nutritious food at work. A work day (12 hours) is much more effective if the employees are healthy. Besides, a worker works well with a full tummy.
3. Demand Proper Setting: Every hired factory worker should have at least proper housing and food (in those factories that have housing). A bed with in a small room with four others and sharing a bathroom with twenty others is not decent housing for a long time. People who live outside the factory should be granted food at least. If work hours are long before the deadline, all employees provided with food, drink and breaks. Having a possibility for company health care is essential, especially if the factory handles less nice stuff.
Housing would cost, of course, but this is the setting I'd prefer: One apartment would house four employees (or a family), have one bedroom with bunk beds, a kitchen and a bathroom. The apartment building would have a space for social gatherings, seats, maybe a few posters. 40 apartments can fit easily and the building costs would be something similar to building a large house in the US. So, a factory owner could postpone their new Hampton's house or the wife's mercedes for a year and take care of the employees. If the company should close the unit in C/I/whatever, they could sell the building to the government for a nominal fee.
Now, the education part: Hiring a teacher from the target country should be easy. India, for example, has quite many people with language skills and some education. Besides, the kids only need to learn to read, write and maybe do some calculus. Anyone can teach them, no need for certified teachers as long as the teacher speaks the kids' language. A meal at school is a very good reason for their parents to let their kids come to school.
Pay.. Pay is always difficult. I couldn't say how much a Chinese factory worker should earn, but It should be decent.. So, if a factory worker in Sweden earns 1400 euros a month plus healthcare and low cost meals at work, it would only be decent to pay the Chinese 350 euros and a meal. It's horrible to hear that they work overtime in poor conditions and earn a swedes' monthly pay in a year
It's horrible to hear that my jeans that I bought for 49 euros have been made by little chinese girls who earns the same amount by working 12 to 16 hours a day for a month. It's sick and it's cruel.
Plus, China doesn't care about the environment, so their factories are pushing the same shit we're trying to get rid of. So instead of substituting more energy and environment efficient factories, companies move their production facilities to China. Nice work.
So, what should China and India do, then?
1. Demand education: If a mother is working in the factory, a factory nanny can take care of the children, so the children can play and not work at home or at some other place (like they do in India). Letting their children have at least the basic education is worth everything (at least future, skillful employees).
2. Pay or food. Employees would be paid for overtime or they are given enough nutritious food at work. A work day (12 hours) is much more effective if the employees are healthy. Besides, a worker works well with a full tummy.
3. Demand Proper Setting: Every hired factory worker should have at least proper housing and food (in those factories that have housing). A bed with in a small room with four others and sharing a bathroom with twenty others is not decent housing for a long time. People who live outside the factory should be granted food at least. If work hours are long before the deadline, all employees provided with food, drink and breaks. Having a possibility for company health care is essential, especially if the factory handles less nice stuff.
Housing would cost, of course, but this is the setting I'd prefer: One apartment would house four employees (or a family), have one bedroom with bunk beds, a kitchen and a bathroom. The apartment building would have a space for social gatherings, seats, maybe a few posters. 40 apartments can fit easily and the building costs would be something similar to building a large house in the US. So, a factory owner could postpone their new Hampton's house or the wife's mercedes for a year and take care of the employees. If the company should close the unit in C/I/whatever, they could sell the building to the government for a nominal fee.
Now, the education part: Hiring a teacher from the target country should be easy. India, for example, has quite many people with language skills and some education. Besides, the kids only need to learn to read, write and maybe do some calculus. Anyone can teach them, no need for certified teachers as long as the teacher speaks the kids' language. A meal at school is a very good reason for their parents to let their kids come to school.
Pay.. Pay is always difficult. I couldn't say how much a Chinese factory worker should earn, but It should be decent.. So, if a factory worker in Sweden earns 1400 euros a month plus healthcare and low cost meals at work, it would only be decent to pay the Chinese 350 euros and a meal. It's horrible to hear that they work overtime in poor conditions and earn a swedes' monthly pay in a year
It's horrible to hear that my jeans that I bought for 49 euros have been made by little chinese girls who earns the same amount by working 12 to 16 hours a day for a month. It's sick and it's cruel.
Saturday
Wednesday
Wanna See My Tooth?
THIS is why you go to a private dentist and do not wait six months for appointment to communal dental care. THIS is why you do NOT drink cola or energy drinks.. THIS is what happens if your kids don't learn to wash their teeth (though this is because of a lot of coca-cola, pepsi and energy drinks, not the fact that my mother didn't bother paying attention to my dental care)..
Introducing my number 32 a.k.a right third molar.
Had two dentists and a nurse jabbing this devil off my mandible.. Last time the dentist didn't look under the gum pocket (cause he was interested in my left molar and time was hurrying) and saw only the healthy part, I think. Because six months ago this tooth made it with honors and for the six months, I was waiting to get my left molar removed..
A horrible, terrible headache and I can't really open my mouth.
Introducing my number 32 a.k.a right third molar.
Had two dentists and a nurse jabbing this devil off my mandible.. Last time the dentist didn't look under the gum pocket (cause he was interested in my left molar and time was hurrying) and saw only the healthy part, I think. Because six months ago this tooth made it with honors and for the six months, I was waiting to get my left molar removed..
A horrible, terrible headache and I can't really open my mouth.
Monday
Toothache and Medvedev
For some strange reason they are still expecting us that Medvedev is Russias' president..? Well, yes, he might be the president, but the one who rules them all is Putin. They just think we are stupid enough to think there is no new Stalin or Lenin in Russia. Come to think of it.. I just might lose my head for having said that...
I woke up with a tootache, third day in row. It's killing me to know that it still takes another thirty days before my dentist. Or then I just might call the emergency and say I can't sleep or chew properly. Latter being not necessarily a bad thing.
I woke up with a tootache, third day in row. It's killing me to know that it still takes another thirty days before my dentist. Or then I just might call the emergency and say I can't sleep or chew properly. Latter being not necessarily a bad thing.
Friday
Summer's Gone
Aaaw, I just noticed there are so many yellow leaves already! That means the summer is gone, though I'm pretty sure it's still warm outside. I haven't been properly out for a week or two; I've gone out for groceries, not really for anything else. Been mostly playing Fallout 3 or Civ IV.
We have a new parrot, an agapornis roseicollis, and she's making my nerves crack. I'm not her numero uno human, and she's so letting me know I'm not the IT person for her. She sings very prettily, but tends to do these terrible screeks in the morning, if I don't go and turn the radio on for her. She's pretty, yellow and red and bites hard. How do you teach a bird not to bite you, anyway? You can't push her away not to make her fear your hand. She doesn't understand yelling at her.. There are days when I wish J woudn't have taken her at all, but most days she just keeps melting my heart over and over again.
For all my life, I have written these short stories, nothing fancy and more teen stuff than grown up stuff. I did this one story, over 70 pages and decided it was too crappy. Now I have a writer's block and it's killing me. I get nothing out. I wish I was natural, that words just came out me.. but nothing. I'm worthless, talentless and ugly. What more could go wrong?
I have applied for 23 positions in the last three weeks. Three replies, one interview, no job. I'm starting to hate this unemployment. Every month without a job makes the chance of getting work go further.
We have a new parrot, an agapornis roseicollis, and she's making my nerves crack. I'm not her numero uno human, and she's so letting me know I'm not the IT person for her. She sings very prettily, but tends to do these terrible screeks in the morning, if I don't go and turn the radio on for her. She's pretty, yellow and red and bites hard. How do you teach a bird not to bite you, anyway? You can't push her away not to make her fear your hand. She doesn't understand yelling at her.. There are days when I wish J woudn't have taken her at all, but most days she just keeps melting my heart over and over again.
For all my life, I have written these short stories, nothing fancy and more teen stuff than grown up stuff. I did this one story, over 70 pages and decided it was too crappy. Now I have a writer's block and it's killing me. I get nothing out. I wish I was natural, that words just came out me.. but nothing. I'm worthless, talentless and ugly. What more could go wrong?
I have applied for 23 positions in the last three weeks. Three replies, one interview, no job. I'm starting to hate this unemployment. Every month without a job makes the chance of getting work go further.
Thursday
About The Guy Who Said He Was Going To Kill Me
Remember the argument I had with this immigrant? About him parking where ever he wanted?
Well, a few days ago I learned that he is has an arrest warrant on him in Sweden and he's wanted for questioning here.. So he has committed crimes in Sweden. Now he's stolen his daughters' passports..
... but I heard he still is in this town and he tried to burn his apartment in order for them to get a bigger and better apartment.
So this is how they pay back our help.
Well, a few days ago I learned that he is has an arrest warrant on him in Sweden and he's wanted for questioning here.. So he has committed crimes in Sweden. Now he's stolen his daughters' passports..
... but I heard he still is in this town and he tried to burn his apartment in order for them to get a bigger and better apartment.
So this is how they pay back our help.
Tuesday
A Lovely Mini-Break
I have had this really strange feeling for a couple of days, like something has been pushed to wrong direction or as if something weird is going on. I can't seem to get rid of the feeling, though I seem to have tried everything.
Well, I'll find out sooner or later.
In the mean time: We had a long heat wave. I was worried, because the grass started to turn yellow, but for a couple of days we've had pretty decent downpour. I don't mind the rain at the moment, I'm only glad that the trees are finally looking more alive.
I spent a nice weekend at my oldest friend's place (oldest friend whom I still see every now and then), we went to the rides at the the park in his town, went sightseeing (mainly local old architecture), shopping and even got to play Battlefield: Bad Company on PS3.
The best part of the weekend? I got myself three Neil Gaiman paperbacks: Anansi Boys, American Gods and Smoke and Mirrors. I love the short stories. The Holy Grail -story almost bought tears to my eyes.
I'm starting to get desperate on the job market. I really need, need, need a job.
Well, I'll find out sooner or later.
In the mean time: We had a long heat wave. I was worried, because the grass started to turn yellow, but for a couple of days we've had pretty decent downpour. I don't mind the rain at the moment, I'm only glad that the trees are finally looking more alive.
I spent a nice weekend at my oldest friend's place (oldest friend whom I still see every now and then), we went to the rides at the the park in his town, went sightseeing (mainly local old architecture), shopping and even got to play Battlefield: Bad Company on PS3.
The best part of the weekend? I got myself three Neil Gaiman paperbacks: Anansi Boys, American Gods and Smoke and Mirrors. I love the short stories. The Holy Grail -story almost bought tears to my eyes.
I'm starting to get desperate on the job market. I really need, need, need a job.
Sunday
I So Want To Eat
Hamburgers
Pizza
Candy
Ice Cream
Anything, basically.
I'm so sick and tired eating right and GAINING weight.
Pizza
Candy
Ice Cream
Anything, basically.
I'm so sick and tired eating right and GAINING weight.
Friday
Thursday
Chris Evans
Chris Evans is one of the few people who should never smile. His upper lip seems to disappear when he smiles. So, pout, pout, pout, Chris.
I Want To Lick Neil Gaiman's Mind
.. to see if it's salty or sweet.
I loved Coraline as a movie, now I only have to get it as a book.
I have Neil Gaiman reading Stardust, Anansi Boys and Graveyard Book, audiobooks. I just love them and keep listening then over and over again!
I loved Coraline as a movie, now I only have to get it as a book.
I have Neil Gaiman reading Stardust, Anansi Boys and Graveyard Book, audiobooks. I just love them and keep listening then over and over again!
Tuesday
Definitely Not A Good Day
I thought I'd lost weight.
No. Gained 8 pounds! 8!
The weirdest thing is that I haven't even been eating "wrong". And I've eaten less and trained more. I don't understand.
This ruins the whole day.
No. Gained 8 pounds! 8!
The weirdest thing is that I haven't even been eating "wrong". And I've eaten less and trained more. I don't understand.
This ruins the whole day.
Wednesday
After 10 Hours Of The Sims 3
I like the body modification thing: You get fat by eating too much and you get thin by excercising:
The sceneries are amazing. Mostly the game looks like The Sims 2.
A sim can tutor someone when they are skillfull enough.
Most of the textures, clothes, hairs and accessories are fugly, but with a little work, you can get pretty decent furniture and clothes:
What is cool:
Music by Steve Jablonsky (though it sounds too simmy, not Jablonsky-ish)
Enabling/disabling aging from the options
Semi-dynamic lighting
Scenery on both neighborhoods
Waves
45 degree angles
Half-grid (the old grid is cut in four parts, so you'll have more options when decorating)
Sim lifespan from 30 days to epic 960 sim days, choosable from the options
Amount of free will (but they still are idiots)
The graveyard
The gnomes
The opportunities
Characteristics
What is not cool:
Jobs
Playing another family in the same "game" is too difficult for beginners
Transportation is not as cracked up as they let us believe
Recycled models
Too little everything unless you want to buy them from the EA shop (for way more than they are worth)
Vegetation is half-life type sprite stuff. Fugly and the sprite thing is very noticeable
Too much of your day goes to hygiene and eating (unless you buy traits)
Relationships are too hard
Cheat codes:
kaching - 1k
motherlode - 50k
familyfunds - any k
hideheadlines on/off - hides everything from above their heads
jokePlease - prints a lame joke on the console
testingcheatsenabled true/false - use shift + mouse on the mail box, there are some good options, like "make all happy" that will fulfill their needs
hideobjects on/off - objects won't fade when you're zooming closer
help - (on build/buy mode) shows most cheats
What's best: You can get The Sims 3 for only 29.99 from Play.com (but you must pay £, if you pay with €, it's more expensive.
The sceneries are amazing. Mostly the game looks like The Sims 2.
A sim can tutor someone when they are skillfull enough.
Most of the textures, clothes, hairs and accessories are fugly, but with a little work, you can get pretty decent furniture and clothes:
What is cool:
Music by Steve Jablonsky (though it sounds too simmy, not Jablonsky-ish)
Enabling/disabling aging from the options
Semi-dynamic lighting
Scenery on both neighborhoods
Waves
45 degree angles
Half-grid (the old grid is cut in four parts, so you'll have more options when decorating)
Sim lifespan from 30 days to epic 960 sim days, choosable from the options
Amount of free will (but they still are idiots)
The graveyard
The gnomes
The opportunities
Characteristics
What is not cool:
Jobs
Playing another family in the same "game" is too difficult for beginners
Transportation is not as cracked up as they let us believe
Recycled models
Too little everything unless you want to buy them from the EA shop (for way more than they are worth)
Vegetation is half-life type sprite stuff. Fugly and the sprite thing is very noticeable
Too much of your day goes to hygiene and eating (unless you buy traits)
Relationships are too hard
Cheat codes:
kaching - 1k
motherlode - 50k
familyfunds
hideheadlines on/off - hides everything from above their heads
jokePlease - prints a lame joke on the console
testingcheatsenabled true/false - use shift + mouse on the mail box, there are some good options, like "make all happy" that will fulfill their needs
hideobjects on/off - objects won't fade when you're zooming closer
help - (on build/buy mode) shows most cheats
What's best: You can get The Sims 3 for only 29.99 from Play.com (but you must pay £, if you pay with €, it's more expensive.
Sunday
I Hate Them
So, my thesis wasn't ready after all. It came back from the inspectors with a "well, basically it sucks, but we'll have to do with this"...
"Sorry it took some time to let you know this.." and "You'll do the changes by tomorrow morning?" Yeah. I have to be at work at 8 and I'll of course get it done by tomorrow. And I didn't even get the last course assignments so I can't finish the last missing course.
Two of my teachers bullied me and I had to take a break from studying and now they are claiming I've been lazy and "have had chances to finish the courses..." I should have sued them when I had the chance.
"Sorry it took some time to let you know this.." and "You'll do the changes by tomorrow morning?" Yeah. I have to be at work at 8 and I'll of course get it done by tomorrow. And I didn't even get the last course assignments so I can't finish the last missing course.
Two of my teachers bullied me and I had to take a break from studying and now they are claiming I've been lazy and "have had chances to finish the courses..." I should have sued them when I had the chance.
Thursday
This Is Me, Partly
So, I guess I haven't told that my grandparents were sámi people. Yesterday I started learning more and here I am today, listening to the anthem of the sámi:
Wednesday
In Dreams, We..
And I thought I was the one having weird dreams. I have been chatting a bit with a woman at my workplace. Today she told me about this dream she keep seeing all over again. In this dream, she owns a small studio apartment. She knows it's there and is happy to have that place. Suddenly she remembers that she has cats and dogs in there and goes there, usually by bike. She always finds one of the cats there, dead and feels guilt, then wakes up.
I have recurring dreams, too, but mine are always somewhat enjoyable, minus the ones I've been haunted by the devil or its minions.
Just yesterday I noticed (as I was watching Miss Potter for the umpteenth time) that I haven't seen Ewan McGregor in my dreams for quite some time now. Thank heavens. By the way, I love the movie Miss Potter and I don't understand why. I think it's because I don't like my mother, neither does Miss Potter in the movie. She's something of an oddity in her time, so am I. Maybe it's the music. Or Ewan McGregor singing "Let me teach you how to dance" without harmonizers etc.
I rarely cry in the movies, but this one manages to open the floodgates almost every time. Well, I was pretty emotional yesterday, because Hubble was released back to its lonely orbit.
Tune of the moment: Peter Gabriel - I grieve
I grieve for you
You leave me
Let it out and move on
I have recurring dreams, too, but mine are always somewhat enjoyable, minus the ones I've been haunted by the devil or its minions.
Just yesterday I noticed (as I was watching Miss Potter for the umpteenth time) that I haven't seen Ewan McGregor in my dreams for quite some time now. Thank heavens. By the way, I love the movie Miss Potter and I don't understand why. I think it's because I don't like my mother, neither does Miss Potter in the movie. She's something of an oddity in her time, so am I. Maybe it's the music. Or Ewan McGregor singing "Let me teach you how to dance" without harmonizers etc.
I rarely cry in the movies, but this one manages to open the floodgates almost every time. Well, I was pretty emotional yesterday, because Hubble was released back to its lonely orbit.
Tune of the moment: Peter Gabriel - I grieve
I grieve for you
You leave me
Let it out and move on
Tuesday
Hubble Is Free Again...
So, Hubble is free again. And alone up there.
I read the goodbyes were emotional and of course I FORGOT to watch it live on NASA tv because I was at work.
It's hard not to think of Hubble as something alive. I really have always thought it more as a friend, or more like a pet.
There will be no more repair missions to Hubble. No one will ever give it a hug. :(
Sometime after 2020, NASA will send a robotic spaceship to steer Hubble back into the atmosphere and if not burned, it will be sunk into a watery grave in the Pacific ocean. In the mean time, let's enjoy all the information it brings us and for today, you can check HubbleSite.
Long live Hubble, may your solar panels and gadgets work for many years to come.. May all the nasty bits and pieces of space go round you and let you show us more of this space we call our home!
Tune of the moment: Haley Westenra - Prayer
Let your arms enfold us
Through the dark of night
Will your angels hold us
Till we see the light
I read the goodbyes were emotional and of course I FORGOT to watch it live on NASA tv because I was at work.
It's hard not to think of Hubble as something alive. I really have always thought it more as a friend, or more like a pet.
There will be no more repair missions to Hubble. No one will ever give it a hug. :(
Sometime after 2020, NASA will send a robotic spaceship to steer Hubble back into the atmosphere and if not burned, it will be sunk into a watery grave in the Pacific ocean. In the mean time, let's enjoy all the information it brings us and for today, you can check HubbleSite.
Long live Hubble, may your solar panels and gadgets work for many years to come.. May all the nasty bits and pieces of space go round you and let you show us more of this space we call our home!
Tune of the moment: Haley Westenra - Prayer
Let your arms enfold us
Through the dark of night
Will your angels hold us
Till we see the light
What The F Is Wrong With People?
I just saw a documentary about the man who was pregnant.
They wanted a baby. They got one.
What's the problem?
Oh, the fact that Thomas used to be a woman?
I have always seen homosexuality as a line of code in genes, not a mental disorder or something criminal. This is the same thing, something in the code (and no, I'm not a programmer/coder): He was born a man, but his genes produced a female body. It's not a miracle, it's not gross, it's just something that had different boolean values. Nature has done some other weird stuff, so why would a man growing inside a female body be gross? I don't get it.
Don't think of me gay happy. I'm not. I see mother-father (even if hormonally produced) families as the default ones, and I don't approve homosexual couples adopting children. Not because it would be awfully wrong, but because there are people like the ones who keep on harassing Thomas and Nancy Beatie. Beatie's daughter will so be bullied at school and it pains me.
Just thinking..
They wanted a baby. They got one.
What's the problem?
Oh, the fact that Thomas used to be a woman?
I have always seen homosexuality as a line of code in genes, not a mental disorder or something criminal. This is the same thing, something in the code (and no, I'm not a programmer/coder): He was born a man, but his genes produced a female body. It's not a miracle, it's not gross, it's just something that had different boolean values. Nature has done some other weird stuff, so why would a man growing inside a female body be gross? I don't get it.
Don't think of me gay happy. I'm not. I see mother-father (even if hormonally produced) families as the default ones, and I don't approve homosexual couples adopting children. Not because it would be awfully wrong, but because there are people like the ones who keep on harassing Thomas and Nancy Beatie. Beatie's daughter will so be bullied at school and it pains me.
Just thinking..
Saturday
The Music Video I'd Like To See
Imagine that today Metallica releases a new single. The music video starts on MTV and you expect the same usual stuff you usually get.. but hey, that doesn't look like James Hetfield...
It's Foo Fighters fake-playing it!
How awesome would that be? How much balls both of the bands would have? That is the kind of music video I would like to see.
It's Foo Fighters fake-playing it!
How awesome would that be? How much balls both of the bands would have? That is the kind of music video I would like to see.
Friday
It's Over
Finally.
My Bachelor's Thesis is done. Eightysomething pages, full of crap of course.
A nice surprise form school:
If I graduate, I will have at least 260 credits. 210 is required to graduate.
Having this extra year isn't such a bad thing in the end. I thought I had too little, but I have a year and a half worth of extra studies. I'm not such a loser as I thought.
I've been watching NASA TV, following live feed from the Hubble servicing mission. I was glad to read the comments, because they show a tremenodus love for Hubble and assure that people approve the use of money for this mission. I'm glad I'm not the only silly one on this Earth.
I wonder how it feels like to wake up, look out of the window and see Earth. From up there the view would probably leave anyone speechless. Is the sea still blue from up there? Is there as much green as the pictures show?
My Bachelor's Thesis is done. Eightysomething pages, full of crap of course.
A nice surprise form school:
If I graduate, I will have at least 260 credits. 210 is required to graduate.
Having this extra year isn't such a bad thing in the end. I thought I had too little, but I have a year and a half worth of extra studies. I'm not such a loser as I thought.
I've been watching NASA TV, following live feed from the Hubble servicing mission. I was glad to read the comments, because they show a tremenodus love for Hubble and assure that people approve the use of money for this mission. I'm glad I'm not the only silly one on this Earth.
I wonder how it feels like to wake up, look out of the window and see Earth. From up there the view would probably leave anyone speechless. Is the sea still blue from up there? Is there as much green as the pictures show?
Thursday
Threat
I heard Russia claims that if Finland joins NATO, Russia will invade Estonia. Just like before. According to a source, this is exactly what happened before Russia (then Soviet Union) attacked Finland the last time. I heard it was a politician who stated this and that he was quite clear. I knew that the Russians think Finland as their colony, but that's a bit thick.
How much of this is true?
If Finland joins NATO, will she receive support?
I'm thinking of moving to New Zealand. I heard it won't accept refugees and requires skilled people, so two of my worries would be removed. And she'll be far away from Russia and not geographically interesting to anyone.
How much of this is true?
If Finland joins NATO, will she receive support?
I'm thinking of moving to New Zealand. I heard it won't accept refugees and requires skilled people, so two of my worries would be removed. And she'll be far away from Russia and not geographically interesting to anyone.
Wednesday
Sunday
I've Had Enough
We live in an apartment block in an area that has had a bad reputation for awhile, mainly because of the town renting some of the buildings to narcs, alcoholists and immigrants (and as a sidenote: the tax payers paying for their rent)
Before I start, I have to tell you a few things beforehand: It is legal to park a car there temporarily if the driver is in the car. I've had seen that same red Opel parking there quite many times for hours and hours. I also have seen other vehicles parked there even through the night. Most of the time when people were told not to leave their cars there, they explained by "carrying groceries" etc. For hours. I personally want it to be left car free because one woman in our end of the house needs ambulance and taxi services to the front door and by parking in front of the first two doors nearest to the road will block the way.
Now to the thing that happened on Friday:
J went and told an immigrant it's not allowed to park in front of the doors and the hell broke loose. I wasn't there to witness the beginning but what J told to the police went like this:
J was waiting for me, sitting in his car, we carpool to work. He noticed that the red Opel that came there was the one that's been parking there all year round. He told the man it was not allowed to park there and the man went nuts. The man started yelling at J, making a gesture as if he was cutting his throat. J locked the car doors, so the man started knocking the windows and trying to open the door. Then he took a rock from the ground and was about to throw it to the car when his wife got there and asked him to drop the stone. The man dropped the stone and came towards J's car, knocking the window.
At this point I came out and saw what was going on. I saw J's face and I knew something was up. Then I saw the red Opel and knew exactly what was going on. The man stopped and started to go towards his car.
I said: "Please don't go anywhere, I'll call the police to solve this!" The man yelled at me in his own language and then came toward me, yelling "I'm taking my sick wife to the hospital", then swearing and calling me an idiot etc.
I repeated, "Wait, I'll call the police to get this solved!" "Call the police, you idiot, call your mother, sisters, whatever!" The wife came to me and started gesturing wildly, explaining what was going on. She said: "I'm sick!". I didn't say, but I thought by yelling and gesturing to me she wasn't so sick she couldn't have walked to the parking lot that's less than 40 feet away, so I said: "It doesn't matter. Leaving your car here is not allowed." I, was, like "whoa" at that point.
I said: "I've seen this car parked here many times for hours and that doesn't count as taking someone to hospital." The man got more angry.
I started walking towards J's car, they yelling at me. At this point I almost laughed at the mans anger and I turned to J and smiled. The man kept on yelling at me and this time, as I felt threatened, I said: "I don't care if you're taking your wife to the hospital now, this car has been parked here without a driver many times..." and tried to add that he should remember this later on, but he gestured towards J and said: "He's parking here!" I said: "It's different, the driver is in the car and he can move it if someone needs the road (it is legal to do this)".
I tried to explain there lives a woman who needs ambulance and taxi to her door, but he didn't pay attention, just kept yelling. I told J to call the police as I got scared. Now the man went absolutely mad and said to me: "I will shoot you!". Baffled, I asked: "Are you threatening me?"
"I will shoot you!"
I said to J: "Call the cops, he's threatening me." To the man: "You're threatening me!" He muttered something, got to his car and drove off.
We got to J's car and drove straight to the police station.
We can't get protection unless something happens (they try to hurt or kill us). So, what to do? Get ourselves ballistic vests? Helmets? I take this very seriously. If a muslim is threatening to shoot a woman, they usually do that. They shoot, stone, hang and drown their women for minor things that are not even called crimes here, so why would I, being a white, non-religious person, be worth more? They kill their own daughters when the daughters are trying to integrate to the western society!
So, immigrants who came to this country as refugees are above the law, I suppose. A police officer's son, whom J explained the whole story, laughed and said: "There's nothing the police can do. Social services pay for their fines and that's it because having to pay fines won't integrate to the society." So basically J, who pays 27% of is income as a tax, pays that fine. The police's son also told his father has seen this dozens of times and it always ends the same way: Refugees get the best legal representation for free and the victims are left with nothing... Or that the criminals only have to appeal to the fact that they are "from a different culture". The police who took our report even hinted that this whole case will be of "difference of cultures" and probably won't result in anything. Except that the other side might sue for racism.
I have always figured that if I am a guest somewhere, I play by their rules (check here)
Now I can safely say I'm not a racist even though I have felt like one for some time. Being a racist means that you have prejudice towards people from other countries and other cultures. I don't have prejudice, I have first hand experience. I don't mind people immigrating or what color their skin is. I only care what they do and so far I haven't seen good behavior.
They are guests in this country, they should obey OUR rules!
I can't believe that I have to live in fear in my own country because of some fuss-ball idiots who want to pretend they are good an humanitarian. Let these immigrants move next door to them and see what's it like for us normal people. Of course they don't mind having more immigrants and refugees because they don't have to live with them!
Before I start, I have to tell you a few things beforehand: It is legal to park a car there temporarily if the driver is in the car. I've had seen that same red Opel parking there quite many times for hours and hours. I also have seen other vehicles parked there even through the night. Most of the time when people were told not to leave their cars there, they explained by "carrying groceries" etc. For hours. I personally want it to be left car free because one woman in our end of the house needs ambulance and taxi services to the front door and by parking in front of the first two doors nearest to the road will block the way.
Now to the thing that happened on Friday:
J went and told an immigrant it's not allowed to park in front of the doors and the hell broke loose. I wasn't there to witness the beginning but what J told to the police went like this:
J was waiting for me, sitting in his car, we carpool to work. He noticed that the red Opel that came there was the one that's been parking there all year round. He told the man it was not allowed to park there and the man went nuts. The man started yelling at J, making a gesture as if he was cutting his throat. J locked the car doors, so the man started knocking the windows and trying to open the door. Then he took a rock from the ground and was about to throw it to the car when his wife got there and asked him to drop the stone. The man dropped the stone and came towards J's car, knocking the window.
At this point I came out and saw what was going on. I saw J's face and I knew something was up. Then I saw the red Opel and knew exactly what was going on. The man stopped and started to go towards his car.
I said: "Please don't go anywhere, I'll call the police to solve this!" The man yelled at me in his own language and then came toward me, yelling "I'm taking my sick wife to the hospital", then swearing and calling me an idiot etc.
I repeated, "Wait, I'll call the police to get this solved!" "Call the police, you idiot, call your mother, sisters, whatever!" The wife came to me and started gesturing wildly, explaining what was going on. She said: "I'm sick!". I didn't say, but I thought by yelling and gesturing to me she wasn't so sick she couldn't have walked to the parking lot that's less than 40 feet away, so I said: "It doesn't matter. Leaving your car here is not allowed." I, was, like "whoa" at that point.
I said: "I've seen this car parked here many times for hours and that doesn't count as taking someone to hospital." The man got more angry.
I started walking towards J's car, they yelling at me. At this point I almost laughed at the mans anger and I turned to J and smiled. The man kept on yelling at me and this time, as I felt threatened, I said: "I don't care if you're taking your wife to the hospital now, this car has been parked here without a driver many times..." and tried to add that he should remember this later on, but he gestured towards J and said: "He's parking here!" I said: "It's different, the driver is in the car and he can move it if someone needs the road (it is legal to do this)".
I tried to explain there lives a woman who needs ambulance and taxi to her door, but he didn't pay attention, just kept yelling. I told J to call the police as I got scared. Now the man went absolutely mad and said to me: "I will shoot you!". Baffled, I asked: "Are you threatening me?"
"I will shoot you!"
I said to J: "Call the cops, he's threatening me." To the man: "You're threatening me!" He muttered something, got to his car and drove off.
We got to J's car and drove straight to the police station.
We can't get protection unless something happens (they try to hurt or kill us). So, what to do? Get ourselves ballistic vests? Helmets? I take this very seriously. If a muslim is threatening to shoot a woman, they usually do that. They shoot, stone, hang and drown their women for minor things that are not even called crimes here, so why would I, being a white, non-religious person, be worth more? They kill their own daughters when the daughters are trying to integrate to the western society!
So, immigrants who came to this country as refugees are above the law, I suppose. A police officer's son, whom J explained the whole story, laughed and said: "There's nothing the police can do. Social services pay for their fines and that's it because having to pay fines won't integrate to the society." So basically J, who pays 27% of is income as a tax, pays that fine. The police's son also told his father has seen this dozens of times and it always ends the same way: Refugees get the best legal representation for free and the victims are left with nothing... Or that the criminals only have to appeal to the fact that they are "from a different culture". The police who took our report even hinted that this whole case will be of "difference of cultures" and probably won't result in anything. Except that the other side might sue for racism.
I have always figured that if I am a guest somewhere, I play by their rules (check here)
Now I can safely say I'm not a racist even though I have felt like one for some time. Being a racist means that you have prejudice towards people from other countries and other cultures. I don't have prejudice, I have first hand experience. I don't mind people immigrating or what color their skin is. I only care what they do and so far I haven't seen good behavior.
They are guests in this country, they should obey OUR rules!
I can't believe that I have to live in fear in my own country because of some fuss-ball idiots who want to pretend they are good an humanitarian. Let these immigrants move next door to them and see what's it like for us normal people. Of course they don't mind having more immigrants and refugees because they don't have to live with them!
Friday
More Hubble & Some Heavenly Creatures
NASA just launched a site for the mission to repair Hubble. Go see it.
"..And we’ll also be installing a soft capture mechanism on the bulk head of Hubble that will help facilitate a future mission to Hubble, primarily for the purpose of de-orbiting it at the end of its useful life.."
I cried. :(
My zebra finch babies are growing so fast. They started taking longer flights yesterday. I felt so bad because I suddenly realized they deserve to be free. They will never feel the wind beneath their wings, never perch on a tree enjoying sunlight. I know they wouldn't survive in the wild if I managed to get them to Australia but I would like them to be go there.
For a light ending I present a medieval bog:
"..And we’ll also be installing a soft capture mechanism on the bulk head of Hubble that will help facilitate a future mission to Hubble, primarily for the purpose of de-orbiting it at the end of its useful life.."
I cried. :(
My zebra finch babies are growing so fast. They started taking longer flights yesterday. I felt so bad because I suddenly realized they deserve to be free. They will never feel the wind beneath their wings, never perch on a tree enjoying sunlight. I know they wouldn't survive in the wild if I managed to get them to Australia but I would like them to be go there.
For a light ending I present a medieval bog:
Thursday
The Kiss
Yet another kiss dream:
I've kissed this person in a dream once before, but this time I hadn't even thought about him for ages. We used to spend some time together before J came along, but have grown distant through the years. He has kissed me in real life, so I know how weird the dream is.
So, we were at a party somewhere and I saw him. He came towards me, chatted with me and J and as soon as J got out of sight, he kissed me. In real life, he's not into kissing, so I was surprised even in the dream. The kiss was very passionate, long and.. umm.. wet. I was thunderstuck when he stopped. Then he pulled me further away from people and started acting very
According to dreammoods "If you are kissing a close friend, then it represents your respect and adoration for your friend. You are seeking some intimate closeness that is lacking in some waking relationship. It may or may not signify a romantic interest for him or her."
Not romantic interest, definitely not, but I think that is true on the whole. That ship sailed years ago. So, I guess this was just one of my quirks on the dream front.
I have been on a very good mood today, smiling all the time. I wonder if it's because of the dream..
Also, I happened to bumb into this guy I dated for a very short time before I met J. He remembered me, but didn't even greet. I don't remember his name anymore. After all, we went out for three weeks or so.. Well, I left him because he was a wuss. He's still handsome as hell, though. Wuss.
I've kissed this person in a dream once before, but this time I hadn't even thought about him for ages. We used to spend some time together before J came along, but have grown distant through the years. He has kissed me in real life, so I know how weird the dream is.
So, we were at a party somewhere and I saw him. He came towards me, chatted with me and J and as soon as J got out of sight, he kissed me. In real life, he's not into kissing, so I was surprised even in the dream. The kiss was very passionate, long and.. umm.. wet. I was thunderstuck when he stopped. Then he pulled me further away from people and started acting very
According to dreammoods "If you are kissing a close friend, then it represents your respect and adoration for your friend. You are seeking some intimate closeness that is lacking in some waking relationship. It may or may not signify a romantic interest for him or her."
Not romantic interest, definitely not, but I think that is true on the whole. That ship sailed years ago. So, I guess this was just one of my quirks on the dream front.
I have been on a very good mood today, smiling all the time. I wonder if it's because of the dream..
Also, I happened to bumb into this guy I dated for a very short time before I met J. He remembered me, but didn't even greet. I don't remember his name anymore. After all, we went out for three weeks or so.. Well, I left him because he was a wuss. He's still handsome as hell, though. Wuss.
Wednesday
Something Is Coming
A few old ladies have said the same thing: When animals that usually try to avoid humans, approach people, something huge and bad will happen. An old man once said: "When animals start to approach people in numbers, a war is coming.."
This spring, A LOT of wild animals have been reported to visit gardens, yards and towns, so much it has made the newspapers.
I was so scared when I heard the Russian president Medvedev was visiting my country. I thought that if Russians wanted to get rid of their puppet president and "ask" Putin to take control again, my country would be good for it. They have started a war once before by blaming us for shooting at them (like a country this small would actually be stupid enough to start arguing with a country tens of times the size and population of our own). Shooting their president would be a good excuse. Well, Medvedev is out and we're still at peace.
Oh, and if war (with anyone) comes and if I survive the initial attack, I will MOST DEFINITELY join the nearest underground army. And if we go, I swear I'll take at least a hundred attackers with me.
This spring, A LOT of wild animals have been reported to visit gardens, yards and towns, so much it has made the newspapers.
I was so scared when I heard the Russian president Medvedev was visiting my country. I thought that if Russians wanted to get rid of their puppet president and "ask" Putin to take control again, my country would be good for it. They have started a war once before by blaming us for shooting at them (like a country this small would actually be stupid enough to start arguing with a country tens of times the size and population of our own). Shooting their president would be a good excuse. Well, Medvedev is out and we're still at peace.
Oh, and if war (with anyone) comes and if I survive the initial attack, I will MOST DEFINITELY join the nearest underground army. And if we go, I swear I'll take at least a hundred attackers with me.
Good Luck, Atlantis! Happy Birthday Hubble!
The shuttle 'Atlantis' is soon launching to a dangerous mission.
The mission? Repair Hubble.
The ones who have been reading my ramblings might remember that I feel very deeply for Hubble. I love the pictures it has taken, I love the idea that it has brought so much information from the surroundings of this planet, so I love Hubble. I was devastated after the first reports of its possible shutdown. I'm glad they decided to repair it instead of just abandon it or whats worse: burn it.
I hope the mission is a success and that everyone will return home safe.
So, thanks NASA!
Oh, and yesterday was Hubbles' 19th Birthday!
Oh, and as a sidenote: I heard Stephen Hawking has been hospitalized. Hope he still has the strength to keep living and fighting ALS.
"I think computer viruses should count as life. I think it says something about human nature that the only form of life we have created so far is purely destructive. We've created life in our own image."
The mission? Repair Hubble.
The ones who have been reading my ramblings might remember that I feel very deeply for Hubble. I love the pictures it has taken, I love the idea that it has brought so much information from the surroundings of this planet, so I love Hubble. I was devastated after the first reports of its possible shutdown. I'm glad they decided to repair it instead of just abandon it or whats worse: burn it.
I hope the mission is a success and that everyone will return home safe.
So, thanks NASA!
Oh, and yesterday was Hubbles' 19th Birthday!
Oh, and as a sidenote: I heard Stephen Hawking has been hospitalized. Hope he still has the strength to keep living and fighting ALS.
"I think computer viruses should count as life. I think it says something about human nature that the only form of life we have created so far is purely destructive. We've created life in our own image."
Monday
Why Does It Always Happen To My Favorite Characters?
Why, oh why do they ALWAYS get rid of all the good characters and why?
I understand the character of Gil Grissom from CSI. He was through with it himself. With Gil and Sara gone, there was no reason to watch it.
I was furious for Ghost Whisperer killing Jim and merging him with new-agy stuff. That was one series not to watch.
Now Kutner from House! He quit house to take a position as associate director for the Obama administration's Office of Public Liaison! WTF? For that!? Goddamn political shit! I still haven't decided if I quit watching.
What's next? Patrick Jane -character quits Mentalist?
I understand the character of Gil Grissom from CSI. He was through with it himself. With Gil and Sara gone, there was no reason to watch it.
I was furious for Ghost Whisperer killing Jim and merging him with new-agy stuff. That was one series not to watch.
Now Kutner from House! He quit house to take a position as associate director for the Obama administration's Office of Public Liaison! WTF? For that!? Goddamn political shit! I still haven't decided if I quit watching.
What's next? Patrick Jane -character quits Mentalist?
Saturday
We Got To Let Norway Know..
South Park did it again! The reason we've bought all seasons on DVD is right there in the 13th episode, the essence of South Park!
Finland gets nuked and for what? Because of Randy and Stan cheated on Pinewood Derby and by doing that started a huge chain of lies that go up to intergalactic level. I like the way Finland is portrayed here. Although the president in real life is not a man as in this episode, but the ever famous Tarja from Conan O'Brien Show (r.i.p show). I guess they mixed the prime minister with the president.
"We got to let Norway know, they were pretty close.." cracked us up. I bet our neighbors enjoyed our nightly laugh-a-rama.
By the way, Matt & Trey, Norway doesn't like Finland. Nobody likes Finland, not even the Finns!
Finland gets nuked and for what? Because of Randy and Stan cheated on Pinewood Derby and by doing that started a huge chain of lies that go up to intergalactic level. I like the way Finland is portrayed here. Although the president in real life is not a man as in this episode, but the ever famous Tarja from Conan O'Brien Show (r.i.p show). I guess they mixed the prime minister with the president.
"We got to let Norway know, they were pretty close.." cracked us up. I bet our neighbors enjoyed our nightly laugh-a-rama.
By the way, Matt & Trey, Norway doesn't like Finland. Nobody likes Finland, not even the Finns!
Tuesday
If I Ruled The World
Language:
Everyone would speak English, other languages would be banned
Reproduction:
Age of consent would be 18. Having sex before 18 would result in a criminal punishment for older party
Giving birth would be free
Maternity counseling would be free for everyone
Finnish style maternity package would be granted for everyone
Single people wouldn't be able to adopt until age of 35
Gays wouldn't be allowed to adopt
Each family would be paid €2000 for a healthy baby when the child turns five months.
Each child would get €100 a month child allowance until the child turns 17 if the parents earn less than €11/hour
Relationships:
There would be no official relationships, just live-in partners
Gay relationships would be banned, but not punished
Taxes:
Everyone would pay a tax of 21% regardless what they earn
Inheritances under €20k would not be taxed at all
Inheritances over €million would be taxed 46%
Minimum wage would be €8/h
Women and men would be paid equally
Schools:
Everyone would have to go through basic school
Everyone would go through nine years in basic school + one life coach year
Schoolday would be from 10 to 15 Sunday to Thursday
Monday would be Physical Education day
School would start at the age of seven:
1 year play school (learning to read, write and calculate)
1 year English
1 year mathematics
1 year biology
1 year music and arts + culture studies
1 year
1 year history, philosophy
1 year mathematics, chemistry & physics
1 year recapping everything that's been learned
+ one year life coach = taxes, social support, family, working, profession tests etc
Every basic school work would not be evaluated by numbers, but by fail/pass
Schools and work places would provide one hot meal/day for everyone
Everyone would be evaluated to best and second suitable profession and get to choose
between. The ones who wouldn't comply to this, would fill in professions that lack
work force.
Students after basic school would live in school provided apartments and pay no rent
Students would receive student allowance of €200 a month after they turn 17
Work & Vacation:
Work hours would be from ten to 15 from Sunday to Thursday and from 12 to 15 friday
The ones who work saturdays too would get paid 400% for the working hours
People with family would get two weeks vacation every year in summer, two days late fall, one week mid-winter and one week late spring
People without family would get two weeks vacation every summer and one week mid-winter
Crimes:
Small crimes would be punished by community service
Domestic violence would be trialed regardless of what the victim thinks
Childporn dealers and users would be castrated
Rapers would be castrated
One time in jail would be with benefits such as nutritional food, private room with private shower and education
Second time in jail would remove all rights to benefits. Food would be good enough to keep prisoners alive in large cells
Multiple crimes would result in a close-up to all-criminals area where they would run their own area together, producing food and goods for theirselves with threath of death penalty on inside crimes
Death Penalty for Murder would be introduced
Alcohol and drugs would be strictly banned and alcohol/drugs related stuff would be force treated
Smoking cigarettes and cigars would be banned everywhere but inside homes, but smokers wouldn't receive free health care
Religion:
Every religion would be banned not to show outside of a person
Discussing religion would be punished
Trying to "sell" religion would be punished
Churches wouldn't be able to take members younger than 18 years
Churches couldn't show outside
Health:
Everyone would have to pay 10€ per visit to the health center (doctor appointments) and 20€/day to hospital. There would be no private hospitals or doctors.
Plastic surgery would be prohibited unless it would be used to fix marks of accidents or violence
Fun:
Movies would be rated suitable according to age:
3+ no violence, sex, bad language, arguments
7+ no violence, sex, bad language
13+ no violence, sex
16+ no gore
18+
Night clubs would be prohibited for people under 23
Entrance fees would be standard €1,5
Age would be confirmed by iris scans included to personal id cards
All museums would be free and if approved, subsidised by the government
Old age + Pension:
Old people would be granted the same pension regardless of what they earned : €1100 a month and wouldn't have to pay tax
Other stuff:
Internet would work by identification by iris scans
Cars would be electric. Speed limits would be 30km/h in city and 90 outside city.
Non-presentative art would be banned
Driving license could be obtained by the age of 17 and renewed every three years
Aren't you glad I don't rule the world!
Everyone would speak English, other languages would be banned
Reproduction:
Age of consent would be 18. Having sex before 18 would result in a criminal punishment for older party
Giving birth would be free
Maternity counseling would be free for everyone
Finnish style maternity package would be granted for everyone
Single people wouldn't be able to adopt until age of 35
Gays wouldn't be allowed to adopt
Each family would be paid €2000 for a healthy baby when the child turns five months.
Each child would get €100 a month child allowance until the child turns 17 if the parents earn less than €11/hour
Relationships:
There would be no official relationships, just live-in partners
Gay relationships would be banned, but not punished
Taxes:
Everyone would pay a tax of 21% regardless what they earn
Inheritances under €20k would not be taxed at all
Inheritances over €million would be taxed 46%
Minimum wage would be €8/h
Women and men would be paid equally
Schools:
Everyone would have to go through basic school
Everyone would go through nine years in basic school + one life coach year
Schoolday would be from 10 to 15 Sunday to Thursday
Monday would be Physical Education day
School would start at the age of seven:
1 year play school (learning to read, write and calculate)
1 year English
1 year mathematics
1 year biology
1 year music and arts + culture studies
1 year
1 year history, philosophy
1 year mathematics, chemistry & physics
1 year recapping everything that's been learned
+ one year life coach = taxes, social support, family, working, profession tests etc
Every basic school work would not be evaluated by numbers, but by fail/pass
Schools and work places would provide one hot meal/day for everyone
Everyone would be evaluated to best and second suitable profession and get to choose
between. The ones who wouldn't comply to this, would fill in professions that lack
work force.
Students after basic school would live in school provided apartments and pay no rent
Students would receive student allowance of €200 a month after they turn 17
Work & Vacation:
Work hours would be from ten to 15 from Sunday to Thursday and from 12 to 15 friday
The ones who work saturdays too would get paid 400% for the working hours
People with family would get two weeks vacation every year in summer, two days late fall, one week mid-winter and one week late spring
People without family would get two weeks vacation every summer and one week mid-winter
Crimes:
Small crimes would be punished by community service
Domestic violence would be trialed regardless of what the victim thinks
Childporn dealers and users would be castrated
Rapers would be castrated
One time in jail would be with benefits such as nutritional food, private room with private shower and education
Second time in jail would remove all rights to benefits. Food would be good enough to keep prisoners alive in large cells
Multiple crimes would result in a close-up to all-criminals area where they would run their own area together, producing food and goods for theirselves with threath of death penalty on inside crimes
Death Penalty for Murder would be introduced
Alcohol and drugs would be strictly banned and alcohol/drugs related stuff would be force treated
Smoking cigarettes and cigars would be banned everywhere but inside homes, but smokers wouldn't receive free health care
Religion:
Every religion would be banned not to show outside of a person
Discussing religion would be punished
Trying to "sell" religion would be punished
Churches wouldn't be able to take members younger than 18 years
Churches couldn't show outside
Health:
Everyone would have to pay 10€ per visit to the health center (doctor appointments) and 20€/day to hospital. There would be no private hospitals or doctors.
Plastic surgery would be prohibited unless it would be used to fix marks of accidents or violence
Fun:
Movies would be rated suitable according to age:
3+ no violence, sex, bad language, arguments
7+ no violence, sex, bad language
13+ no violence, sex
16+ no gore
18+
Night clubs would be prohibited for people under 23
Entrance fees would be standard €1,5
Age would be confirmed by iris scans included to personal id cards
All museums would be free and if approved, subsidised by the government
Old age + Pension:
Old people would be granted the same pension regardless of what they earned : €1100 a month and wouldn't have to pay tax
Other stuff:
Internet would work by identification by iris scans
Cars would be electric. Speed limits would be 30km/h in city and 90 outside city.
Non-presentative art would be banned
Driving license could be obtained by the age of 17 and renewed every three years
Aren't you glad I don't rule the world!
Thursday
Monday
Time Warp Dude Is Hawt
I never actually realized how hot the guy in Time Warp is. You know, the bald one. Jeff Lieberman is a real-life scientist. In case you haven't seen Time Warp, it's just passed its first season of hi-speed camera action. In addition to that beautiful set of brown eyes and a sharp nose, he's not only smart in robotics, but musical. I didn't know that before today, but somehow I've had this image of him playing electric guitar. I don't know if he does play guitar, but anyway.
He's hawt and I must confess having a few nice dreams about him. No, really. Of the few people in public's eye, I'd really like to hear what goes inside his head.
He's hawt and I must confess having a few nice dreams about him. No, really. Of the few people in public's eye, I'd really like to hear what goes inside his head.
Thursday
I Still Hate Being Erica
So why am I watching it?
I think this picture speaks for itself. I suffer every episode in hopes of seeing Tyron Leitso. The Hottest of the Ha-w-tee? Yup. Is watching a TV show because of handsome face okay to deal with the torture of the life of that poor woman character? Wouldn't you want to have just one smile from that face?
I think this picture speaks for itself. I suffer every episode in hopes of seeing Tyron Leitso. The Hottest of the Ha-w-tee? Yup. Is watching a TV show because of handsome face okay to deal with the torture of the life of that poor woman character? Wouldn't you want to have just one smile from that face?
Tuesday
Endless Ocean
I just spend three days playing Endless Ocean on Wii.
I actually almost cried when I took the first dive.
I simply love it! I've had an aquarium of my own and have thought getting myself a salt water aquarium. Okay, the surroundings get a bit boring, since everything keeps the same, just a bit variation with layout. The bottom texture starts to annoy after ten-thirteen hours.
The fish are great! There's a lot of variation of species and they've also included some amazing fish (& some mammals, amphibians etc) and even a sea cucumber (my favorite!)..
I've found some of the species, like, a gazillion times and some species won't show up even if I dive the locations day and night and night and day, so, after going through the whole game I still have 40+ species unfound.
And I really don't get the Polar bear. Baby animals that come on the deck of the boat are a major plus! I just love the penguins!
Only thing that really bothers me is the partner thing. First, you can't have all the dolphins as partners (choosing is difficult) and having a wild thing as a partner (pet) to train is NOT OKAY in real life. It keeps amazing me how the dolphins seem to really like humans in real life.
Well, come to think of it, petting fish that live out on the reef is not okay in real life either, but I suppose Endless Ocean is better to learn of the marine life than going out there really. Besides, petting Red stingrays isn't probably smart in real life.
The soundtrack is great for diving. It's soft, flowing and Haley Westenra (Lucy, anyone?) has a very, very beautiful voice. I don't like that kind of music, but surprisingly that didn't annoy me.
I actually almost cried when I took the first dive.
I simply love it! I've had an aquarium of my own and have thought getting myself a salt water aquarium. Okay, the surroundings get a bit boring, since everything keeps the same, just a bit variation with layout. The bottom texture starts to annoy after ten-thirteen hours.
The fish are great! There's a lot of variation of species and they've also included some amazing fish (& some mammals, amphibians etc) and even a sea cucumber (my favorite!)..
I've found some of the species, like, a gazillion times and some species won't show up even if I dive the locations day and night and night and day, so, after going through the whole game I still have 40+ species unfound.
And I really don't get the Polar bear. Baby animals that come on the deck of the boat are a major plus! I just love the penguins!
Only thing that really bothers me is the partner thing. First, you can't have all the dolphins as partners (choosing is difficult) and having a wild thing as a partner (pet) to train is NOT OKAY in real life. It keeps amazing me how the dolphins seem to really like humans in real life.
Well, come to think of it, petting fish that live out on the reef is not okay in real life either, but I suppose Endless Ocean is better to learn of the marine life than going out there really. Besides, petting Red stingrays isn't probably smart in real life.
The soundtrack is great for diving. It's soft, flowing and Haley Westenra (Lucy, anyone?) has a very, very beautiful voice. I don't like that kind of music, but surprisingly that didn't annoy me.
Thursday
I Hate Myself And I Want To Die
Actually, I don't.
I'm still fat, but otherwise, I kind of like myself. I like the way my thoughts come and go. I like my voice. I have brown eyes, but mostly when I want them to go away, I use opaque contact lenses. I like my upper lip. I like the way I'm prejudical. I like the part in me that's racist. I think I like me.
The only thing I would really, really want to change is my history. But I heard that a heart medicine might erase bad memories. So, I'll just wait for the beta blockers to come to aid.
Oh and I'd also like to be shitload rich. :)
I'm still fat, but otherwise, I kind of like myself. I like the way my thoughts come and go. I like my voice. I have brown eyes, but mostly when I want them to go away, I use opaque contact lenses. I like my upper lip. I like the way I'm prejudical. I like the part in me that's racist. I think I like me.
The only thing I would really, really want to change is my history. But I heard that a heart medicine might erase bad memories. So, I'll just wait for the beta blockers to come to aid.
Oh and I'd also like to be shitload rich. :)
Tuesday
Alone In The Dark
I'm still afraid to sleep alone.
As a kid, I used to make sure my covers were stuck under the matress and my toes firmly hidden. Most of the time, I couldn't sleep because of the random sounds the house made.
I still have nightmares, but for some reason they have gone from horrifying, sweat-breaking, screamily nightmares to stupid nightmares that won't bother me the next day.
For the next two nights I have to sleep alone. Most likely I'll keep the bathroom light on. Silly. I'm 28 ffs.
As a kid, I used to make sure my covers were stuck under the matress and my toes firmly hidden. Most of the time, I couldn't sleep because of the random sounds the house made.
I still have nightmares, but for some reason they have gone from horrifying, sweat-breaking, screamily nightmares to stupid nightmares that won't bother me the next day.
For the next two nights I have to sleep alone. Most likely I'll keep the bathroom light on. Silly. I'm 28 ffs.
Friday
My Favorite South Park Episode
Cartman goes to Idols and bets with Kyle and Stan that he can make it to the finals. They all, including Kenny sign up and fake their age. Cartman will do the stupid audition stuff the American Idol losers do. Simon Cowell loves him, though. And Kenny shines like the brightest star and ends up in the finals and eventually wins. He gets disqualified when Cartman reveals their true age. Kenny however will sign a record contract.
I Want Graveyard Book - The Movie
When listening to (yes, I'm addicted to audio books - nothing beats playing Fallout 3 & listening to books) The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman, I formed this image in my head even though Neil Jordan has been assigned to write & direct a movie of the book:
The Graveyard Book - The Movie
Directed by Tim Burton
Produced by Danny Boyle / Edgar Wright.
Starring:
Liam Broggy as young Bod
Alex Pettyfer as late teen Bod
Gary Oldman as Silas
Helena Bonham Carter as Miss Lupescu
Emma Roberts as Lisa Hempstock
Sophie Wu as teen Scarlett Amber Perkins
Tim Kang as The Man Jack
Toby Stephens as Mr Owens
Rae Ritke as Mrs Owens
Kevin McKidd as Caius Pompeius
But, I guess we'll be seeing a crappy shitmovie that will spoil the book.
The Graveyard Book - The Movie
Directed by Tim Burton
Produced by Danny Boyle / Edgar Wright.
Starring:
Liam Broggy as young Bod
Alex Pettyfer as late teen Bod
Gary Oldman as Silas
Helena Bonham Carter as Miss Lupescu
Emma Roberts as Lisa Hempstock
Sophie Wu as teen Scarlett Amber Perkins
Tim Kang as The Man Jack
Toby Stephens as Mr Owens
Rae Ritke as Mrs Owens
Kevin McKidd as Caius Pompeius
But, I guess we'll be seeing a crappy shitmovie that will spoil the book.
Wednesday
Sims 3 Will Be Delayed!
So,
Sims 3 won't come out until JUNE! JUNE, people! This delay better produce a 100% bug free, enjoyable game for that shitty price.
I don't mind delay, I'm still waiting for Blackmesa, but knowing that EA will only produce a half-made, bug-infested game pisses me off! And I'm still stupid enough to go buy it.
This sucks.
Sims 3 won't come out until JUNE! JUNE, people! This delay better produce a 100% bug free, enjoyable game for that shitty price.
I don't mind delay, I'm still waiting for Blackmesa, but knowing that EA will only produce a half-made, bug-infested game pisses me off! And I'm still stupid enough to go buy it.
This sucks.
I Hate Being Erica
So, there's this new show, called Being Erica.
I hate it.I fucking hate it.
I hate all these things about people who get more and more shit every day from their family and more: from their friends. Episode five of Being Erica made me want to kill every woman on this planet.
A good reminder why I don't like women and have only one female friend. I've been deceived, bullied and overlooked by girls and women all my life and seeing one woman - even fictinally - tortured by other women makes me want to puke!
I hate women. The only women I stand are my sisters (partly because I have to and they have more in their heads than the current lipstick fashion and pooping children) and my friend L, who doesn't like the woman stuff either.
However, the crappy show has made me think. What if I'm 32 in just four years, I probably won't be married, employed nor with children. Then I'll be glad I don't have bitches as friends.
I hate it.I fucking hate it.
I hate all these things about people who get more and more shit every day from their family and more: from their friends. Episode five of Being Erica made me want to kill every woman on this planet.
A good reminder why I don't like women and have only one female friend. I've been deceived, bullied and overlooked by girls and women all my life and seeing one woman - even fictinally - tortured by other women makes me want to puke!
I hate women. The only women I stand are my sisters (partly because I have to and they have more in their heads than the current lipstick fashion and pooping children) and my friend L, who doesn't like the woman stuff either.
However, the crappy show has made me think. What if I'm 32 in just four years, I probably won't be married, employed nor with children. Then I'll be glad I don't have bitches as friends.
Tuesday
A Little Something From The Past & Comets
The comet Lulin is visible for a couple of weeks. I haven't seen it yet, because it "rises" above the horizon very early in the morning. I have a good telescope and I haven't been able to use it for quite some time now, because most of the time the weather sucks.
My Ex spoke to me on MSN today. I removed him from my friend contacts ages ago cause I thought it would be annoying to J and my ex's wife if we talked to each other. But today I figured it is totally okay and added him to friends again. We don't have feelings for each other anymore. We broke up for a reason back then and we live 600 kilometers apart, so what harm could it do to anyone?
I still love him, when he comes to my mind once or twice a year, but not in that relationship-love -manner. It's like the love you feel for something good that happened, the good memories and feelings remembered. I love all my exes, the good bits in them. But I would never want to have a relationship with them again. I know what was M's biggest fault and I bet he found a great deal in me. Being awfully jeallous isn't the smallest, I bet.
The only relationship I regret were the two I didn't have. One because I didn't want to break up with M and one because this guy was too good a friend to lose. The friend has long been gone, so no harm would have been done anyway.
Regrets, one thing the humans could do without.
My Ex spoke to me on MSN today. I removed him from my friend contacts ages ago cause I thought it would be annoying to J and my ex's wife if we talked to each other. But today I figured it is totally okay and added him to friends again. We don't have feelings for each other anymore. We broke up for a reason back then and we live 600 kilometers apart, so what harm could it do to anyone?
I still love him, when he comes to my mind once or twice a year, but not in that relationship-love -manner. It's like the love you feel for something good that happened, the good memories and feelings remembered. I love all my exes, the good bits in them. But I would never want to have a relationship with them again. I know what was M's biggest fault and I bet he found a great deal in me. Being awfully jeallous isn't the smallest, I bet.
The only relationship I regret were the two I didn't have. One because I didn't want to break up with M and one because this guy was too good a friend to lose. The friend has long been gone, so no harm would have been done anyway.
Regrets, one thing the humans could do without.
Monday
He's Hawt!
Hawt.
Hawt hawt hawt.
Tyron Leitso
How cute is that?
He's got all this Jason Priestley - Clive Owen -thing going on.
AND I LOVE IT!
Hawt hawt hawt.
Tyron Leitso
How cute is that?
He's got all this Jason Priestley - Clive Owen -thing going on.
AND I LOVE IT!
Friday
Adrenaline Rush
A little bit Left 4 Dead before going to school...
I've had one of the greatest adrenaline rushes playing Versus mode today. Really, I'm still shaking. And I haven't had this much FUN playing games. I always enjoy playing games (even if they are buggy mod-like too-expensive too-recycled games), but actual laughable fun I haven't had so many times.
Versus Achievements:
BIG DRAG
Drag a Survivor 100 feet with your tongue as a Smoker.
It's actually quite hard. Hitting the target for one thing, but actually being able to drag someone 100 feet before their team helps them is difficult. And deadly.
DOUBLE JUMP
Pounce two different Survivors on one life as a Hunter.
My life as a hunter has been very short today, but I actually managed to win us a round by incapping these two right before would've gone to safehouse.
OUTBREAK
Catch a rare strain of infection, then pass it on to someone else.
I didn't even understand what happened :)
I've had one of the greatest adrenaline rushes playing Versus mode today. Really, I'm still shaking. And I haven't had this much FUN playing games. I always enjoy playing games (even if they are buggy mod-like too-expensive too-recycled games), but actual laughable fun I haven't had so many times.
Versus Achievements:
BIG DRAG
Drag a Survivor 100 feet with your tongue as a Smoker.
It's actually quite hard. Hitting the target for one thing, but actually being able to drag someone 100 feet before their team helps them is difficult. And deadly.
DOUBLE JUMP
Pounce two different Survivors on one life as a Hunter.
My life as a hunter has been very short today, but I actually managed to win us a round by incapping these two right before would've gone to safehouse.
OUTBREAK
Catch a rare strain of infection, then pass it on to someone else.
I didn't even understand what happened :)
Thursday
Achieving Survival
38 Hours gone ->
DEAD STOP
Punch a Hunter as he is pouncing.
Enjoyable, but less desirable if you are the one who's getting pounced.
DRAG AND DROP
Rescue a Survivor from a Smoker's tongue before he takes damage.
Did you know you can even hit the Smoker tongue with your gun or your fists? Even a medkit as a melee will release your buddy.
BLIND LUCK
You or another Survivor take no damage after being vomited on by a Boomer.
I've had nightmares of Boomers vomiting on me. Just use the vision you have left, go to a corner and shoot everything that moves.
MY BODYGUARD
Protect any Survivor from an attacking Infected 50 times.
Love your friends and they'll love you back. It's quite useful. It's all about the co-op. If you see your friend gets some, go help ffs!
AKIMBO ASSASSIN
Survive an entire campaign using only pistols.
Yes, but you can also use gas tanks, pipe bombs, molotovs'. The only thing you can't fire is the minigun or your primary weapon. And yes, you can use two pistols.
FIELD MEDIC
Heal 25 Survivors with a first aid kit.
Helping others is fun. Everyone should try it.
PHARM-ASSIST
Give pain pills to 10 Survivors.
Helping others is still fun.
HERO CLOSET
Rescue a Survivor trapped in a closet.
This is a tricky thing. Someone will have to "die" and respawn to a closet near you. I achieved this from helping Louis the AI out of a closet after a Tank had some private fun with him. If someone keeps yelling "Get me out of here", go help.
HUNTER PUNTER
Shove a Hunter off of a pinned and helpless Survivor.
Shove them away and kick their butt. Fun and easy.
TONGUE TWISTER
Kill a Smoker who has grabbed you with his tongue.
Piece of cake. You'll only have couple of seconds before you lose the ability to move, so you better a) aim to the head and b) fire as fast as you can and c) hope you have some friends around.
NO SMOKING SECTION
Kill 10 Smokers as they are pulling helpless Survivors.
Smoking is bad. If someone has gotten the tongue treatement, take a rambo attitude, run towards the smoker and shoot as fast as you can!
101 CREMATIONS
Set 101 Infected on fire.
This was surprisingly easy. Just threw a few molotov's to a horde and voilá!
DO NOT DISTURB
Sneak past all Witches in a campaign without disturbing one.
Sneaking past all Witches wasn't as easy as sneaking is supposed to be. You never know if the witch will moan right in front of the only door you can go through or not. A few tries (and lots of errors)!
TANKBUSTERS
Kill a Tank without it dealing any damage to a Survivor.
On Easy, this is easy. Otherwise, duck and run.
NO-ONE LEFT BEHIND
Beat a campaign with all 4 Survivors.
Easy, even with AI survivors. Less easy on Advanced.
UNBREAKABLE
Finish a campaign without ever using a first aid kit on yourself.
Yes, you can use pain pills. Stay behind everyone in hordes, when you hear a special zomb, stay in the middle and you'll be okay. Ask for teammates to assist you with pills. And DO NOT playi with AI players. They'll attempt to heal you just as you're hopping to the boat.
WITCH HUNTER
Kill a Witch without any Survivor taking damage from her.
Basically, someone annoys the witch, everybody shoots before she gets to the annoyer.
PYROTECHNICIAN
Blow up 20 Infected in a single explosion.
"Boom". I love the (virtual) smell of burning zombies in the morning! Pipe bombs for teh win!
GROUND COVER
Save another Survivor from a Special Infected while on the ground.
I usually haven't been that long on the ground, but I managed to save two survivors while having a ground break. Just aim and shoot at a zomb that is either hitting or about to strike a teammate. I even managed to save two from pouncing Hunters.
CLEAN KILL
Shove a Boomer and then kill him without him splashing on anyone.
Boomer, check. Mouse button 3, check. Fire at will, check.
STAND TALL
Survive a campaign without being incapacitated.
Try achieving this on Expert and you wish you'd never been born. Easiest way to achieve is to play with trusted friends, go to a safe place when the horde comes (such as a room with every survivor in) and shoot through the door.
BACK 2 HELP
Leave a safe room to save an incapped teammate and bring them back safely
I never understand why I went back. I was safe in that room and I just could have let J die. But nooooo, I had to be the hero and go back.
BURN THE WITCH
Light a Witch with a Molotov.
I so enjoyed this. I didn't enjoy the burning Witch incapping me.
TOWERING INFERNO
Light a Tank with a Molotov.
First achievement and by accident. I so enjoy having someone write "TANK!" in team chat. It reminds me of the days playing Natural Selection and someone typing (or yelling) "Onos!"..
SPINAL TAP
Kill an Infected with a single blow from behind.
Sneak behind a sitting zombie or one that's leaning to a wall, then just a quick snap using the butt of your primary weapon.
BRAIN SALAD
Make 100 headshot kills.
Aim in the head. Eventually, it will come.
JUMP SHOT
Headshot a Hunter while he's leaping.
This was somehow hard for me to get. If you've the bounce target, you really have to hit the head or get pounced.
MERCY KILLER
Survive the No Mercy campaign.
Go high. The roof behind and up the minigun is the best place to be if you have a friend up there too. That way you can keep a good eye on the special infected. Save one pipe bomb to the last horde that comes after the helicopter (is finally coming). When the leader says "The helicopter is here", go towards the landing pad and WAIT until you SEE zombies coming. Then throw the pipe bomb and have a few exta seconds to make sure everyone gets in to the helicopter.
TOLL COLLECTOR
Survive the Death Toll campaign. Same thing as with Mercy. Everyone should be near the minigun here, it's the best place to be. Keep one pipebomb and once you're going to the boat, wait until you see the last horde and then throw the pipe bomb. It's much easier to hop on the boat if you don't have to shake off ten zombies.
DEAD BARON
Survive the Dead Air campaign.
This is the trickiest one, in my opinion. Everyone should go on top of the tank truck and shoot from there. When the Tank attacks, duck the rubble he sends flying towards you, but stand your ground. When he's climbing on the tank truck, go down and shoot that bastard. Repeat. Remember to save a pipe bomb! Even one should suffice.
GRIM REAPER
Survive the Blood Harvest campaign.
The corn field horde is a wee annoying one. Just stay together. Pipe bomb is useful in the end too, but to survive, everyone should go to the second floor roof corner and stay there between Tanks. Boomers will make it difficult, but we've had the best survivals in that corner.
DEAD STOP
Punch a Hunter as he is pouncing.
Enjoyable, but less desirable if you are the one who's getting pounced.
DRAG AND DROP
Rescue a Survivor from a Smoker's tongue before he takes damage.
Did you know you can even hit the Smoker tongue with your gun or your fists? Even a medkit as a melee will release your buddy.
BLIND LUCK
You or another Survivor take no damage after being vomited on by a Boomer.
I've had nightmares of Boomers vomiting on me. Just use the vision you have left, go to a corner and shoot everything that moves.
MY BODYGUARD
Protect any Survivor from an attacking Infected 50 times.
Love your friends and they'll love you back. It's quite useful. It's all about the co-op. If you see your friend gets some, go help ffs!
AKIMBO ASSASSIN
Survive an entire campaign using only pistols.
Yes, but you can also use gas tanks, pipe bombs, molotovs'. The only thing you can't fire is the minigun or your primary weapon. And yes, you can use two pistols.
FIELD MEDIC
Heal 25 Survivors with a first aid kit.
Helping others is fun. Everyone should try it.
PHARM-ASSIST
Give pain pills to 10 Survivors.
Helping others is still fun.
HERO CLOSET
Rescue a Survivor trapped in a closet.
This is a tricky thing. Someone will have to "die" and respawn to a closet near you. I achieved this from helping Louis the AI out of a closet after a Tank had some private fun with him. If someone keeps yelling "Get me out of here", go help.
HUNTER PUNTER
Shove a Hunter off of a pinned and helpless Survivor.
Shove them away and kick their butt. Fun and easy.
TONGUE TWISTER
Kill a Smoker who has grabbed you with his tongue.
Piece of cake. You'll only have couple of seconds before you lose the ability to move, so you better a) aim to the head and b) fire as fast as you can and c) hope you have some friends around.
NO SMOKING SECTION
Kill 10 Smokers as they are pulling helpless Survivors.
Smoking is bad. If someone has gotten the tongue treatement, take a rambo attitude, run towards the smoker and shoot as fast as you can!
101 CREMATIONS
Set 101 Infected on fire.
This was surprisingly easy. Just threw a few molotov's to a horde and voilá!
DO NOT DISTURB
Sneak past all Witches in a campaign without disturbing one.
Sneaking past all Witches wasn't as easy as sneaking is supposed to be. You never know if the witch will moan right in front of the only door you can go through or not. A few tries (and lots of errors)!
TANKBUSTERS
Kill a Tank without it dealing any damage to a Survivor.
On Easy, this is easy. Otherwise, duck and run.
NO-ONE LEFT BEHIND
Beat a campaign with all 4 Survivors.
Easy, even with AI survivors. Less easy on Advanced.
UNBREAKABLE
Finish a campaign without ever using a first aid kit on yourself.
Yes, you can use pain pills. Stay behind everyone in hordes, when you hear a special zomb, stay in the middle and you'll be okay. Ask for teammates to assist you with pills. And DO NOT playi with AI players. They'll attempt to heal you just as you're hopping to the boat.
WITCH HUNTER
Kill a Witch without any Survivor taking damage from her.
Basically, someone annoys the witch, everybody shoots before she gets to the annoyer.
PYROTECHNICIAN
Blow up 20 Infected in a single explosion.
"Boom". I love the (virtual) smell of burning zombies in the morning! Pipe bombs for teh win!
GROUND COVER
Save another Survivor from a Special Infected while on the ground.
I usually haven't been that long on the ground, but I managed to save two survivors while having a ground break. Just aim and shoot at a zomb that is either hitting or about to strike a teammate. I even managed to save two from pouncing Hunters.
CLEAN KILL
Shove a Boomer and then kill him without him splashing on anyone.
Boomer, check. Mouse button 3, check. Fire at will, check.
STAND TALL
Survive a campaign without being incapacitated.
Try achieving this on Expert and you wish you'd never been born. Easiest way to achieve is to play with trusted friends, go to a safe place when the horde comes (such as a room with every survivor in) and shoot through the door.
BACK 2 HELP
Leave a safe room to save an incapped teammate and bring them back safely
I never understand why I went back. I was safe in that room and I just could have let J die. But nooooo, I had to be the hero and go back.
BURN THE WITCH
Light a Witch with a Molotov.
I so enjoyed this. I didn't enjoy the burning Witch incapping me.
TOWERING INFERNO
Light a Tank with a Molotov.
First achievement and by accident. I so enjoy having someone write "TANK!" in team chat. It reminds me of the days playing Natural Selection and someone typing (or yelling) "Onos!"..
SPINAL TAP
Kill an Infected with a single blow from behind.
Sneak behind a sitting zombie or one that's leaning to a wall, then just a quick snap using the butt of your primary weapon.
BRAIN SALAD
Make 100 headshot kills.
Aim in the head. Eventually, it will come.
JUMP SHOT
Headshot a Hunter while he's leaping.
This was somehow hard for me to get. If you've the bounce target, you really have to hit the head or get pounced.
MERCY KILLER
Survive the No Mercy campaign.
Go high. The roof behind and up the minigun is the best place to be if you have a friend up there too. That way you can keep a good eye on the special infected. Save one pipe bomb to the last horde that comes after the helicopter (is finally coming). When the leader says "The helicopter is here", go towards the landing pad and WAIT until you SEE zombies coming. Then throw the pipe bomb and have a few exta seconds to make sure everyone gets in to the helicopter.
TOLL COLLECTOR
Survive the Death Toll campaign. Same thing as with Mercy. Everyone should be near the minigun here, it's the best place to be. Keep one pipebomb and once you're going to the boat, wait until you see the last horde and then throw the pipe bomb. It's much easier to hop on the boat if you don't have to shake off ten zombies.
DEAD BARON
Survive the Dead Air campaign.
This is the trickiest one, in my opinion. Everyone should go on top of the tank truck and shoot from there. When the Tank attacks, duck the rubble he sends flying towards you, but stand your ground. When he's climbing on the tank truck, go down and shoot that bastard. Repeat. Remember to save a pipe bomb! Even one should suffice.
GRIM REAPER
Survive the Blood Harvest campaign.
The corn field horde is a wee annoying one. Just stay together. Pipe bomb is useful in the end too, but to survive, everyone should go to the second floor roof corner and stay there between Tanks. Boomers will make it difficult, but we've had the best survivals in that corner.
Monday
Left 4 Dead
I finally got myself Left4Dead after realizing it's much cheaper in GBP, so, since Steam doesn't allow Euro countries to pay in Pounds, we asked a friend of our to buy them as a gift. So the price isn't even annoying anymore.
After playing 42 hours Left 4 Dead, I have come to find a few annoyances: Recycled textures and models (from HL2, CSS) - so they didn't even bother making new models (for that price!!). Some of the sounds are recycled, too. And the four campaigns each taking an hour or so, is way too little to play. So, basically they sold a mod priced like a standalone game. I'm so glad I didn't preorder.
The good side of the game is the co-op fun. It's so much fun having to trust other players to watch ones' back. I had a few scares. And I still panic when the Tanks growls somewhere near us. Sneaking by the witch is always creepy, especially if one of the team happens to like to startle the witch rather than just sneak. The Achievements are fun but annoying to reach. Trying to headshot a jumping Hunter is pretty hard. I haven't even tried Versus mode, since I'm co-op in every game!
So, in conclusion: I like the game, but I'm still disappointed.
After playing 42 hours Left 4 Dead, I have come to find a few annoyances: Recycled textures and models (from HL2, CSS) - so they didn't even bother making new models (for that price!!). Some of the sounds are recycled, too. And the four campaigns each taking an hour or so, is way too little to play. So, basically they sold a mod priced like a standalone game. I'm so glad I didn't preorder.
The good side of the game is the co-op fun. It's so much fun having to trust other players to watch ones' back. I had a few scares. And I still panic when the Tanks growls somewhere near us. Sneaking by the witch is always creepy, especially if one of the team happens to like to startle the witch rather than just sneak. The Achievements are fun but annoying to reach. Trying to headshot a jumping Hunter is pretty hard. I haven't even tried Versus mode, since I'm co-op in every game!
So, in conclusion: I like the game, but I'm still disappointed.
Saturday
The N Word
I don't get it.
What's wrong with the word nigger? In my country, it was used to define a certain group of people, like, since day one Africa was found and IT WAS NOT RUDE. It was a definition and at occasions, it was found cute. Then they started immigrating and suddenly it became offensive.
What if we told the black people it's racist to call us "white" or refer to our skin color in their speech? Isn't it more rude to use the terms black and white than using a word that they use to define themselves?
I think the use of the word "coloured" is wrong. They are not coloured, as if white is the default and they would be coloured.
I want to meet just one black person who doesn't claim every misfortune they have on "white people" being racist. No matter what you say or do, even if it's the undeniable truth, you're a racist, because that doesn't suit them.
I won't deny the trouble they have gone through because of "white" people, but hey, women have had full human rights for just a bit longer than black people. What do you think of that? If a man is chosen to a job, can I claim it's racism?
The definition of racism has gone bonkers. These days you're a racist if you speak the truth. Because the truth is inconvenient to some people.
If the "black" people have so much trouble living where they live, they might be welcome in the country they originated from. I'm so sick and tired having to be careful of every word I say in front of a black person (or other race people). Not because I'm afraid I might say something offensive, but because you don't know what will be the word they might find racist today.
What's wrong with the word nigger? In my country, it was used to define a certain group of people, like, since day one Africa was found and IT WAS NOT RUDE. It was a definition and at occasions, it was found cute. Then they started immigrating and suddenly it became offensive.
What if we told the black people it's racist to call us "white" or refer to our skin color in their speech? Isn't it more rude to use the terms black and white than using a word that they use to define themselves?
I think the use of the word "coloured" is wrong. They are not coloured, as if white is the default and they would be coloured.
I want to meet just one black person who doesn't claim every misfortune they have on "white people" being racist. No matter what you say or do, even if it's the undeniable truth, you're a racist, because that doesn't suit them.
I won't deny the trouble they have gone through because of "white" people, but hey, women have had full human rights for just a bit longer than black people. What do you think of that? If a man is chosen to a job, can I claim it's racism?
The definition of racism has gone bonkers. These days you're a racist if you speak the truth. Because the truth is inconvenient to some people.
If the "black" people have so much trouble living where they live, they might be welcome in the country they originated from. I'm so sick and tired having to be careful of every word I say in front of a black person (or other race people). Not because I'm afraid I might say something offensive, but because you don't know what will be the word they might find racist today.
EA Approves Sims 2 Donation Sites
EA approves Sims 2 donation sites..
At least in my opinion. Today I came across to a Sims 2 fan site named Holy Simoly that announced it's second creator was invited by EA to play Sims 3. In my opinion, that's their statement that selling that stuff is okay. By inviting someone that sells stuff they have the rights, I say it's announcing they don't care. Or that they care more. I bet there are some studies telling how the amount of available custom content raises the chance to sell expansion and stuff packs. Well, at least, it was. Since it's time for Sims 3.
Today I found a pre-order Sims 3 that included a plumbbob usb memory. I so wanted that. But the salesperson didn't know the price for the game. He said it's now in 60 euros and it will probably rise a bit. I hope they crack the game soon, cause I sure as hell am NOT paying 60+ euros a game. Geez, I thought Fallout 3 was expensive. Sims 3 doesn't even look much different from 2. The furniture is ugly as hell - again and the clothes ever fuglier. What the hell are those people? 90? Floral and animal patters ARE OUT FOR GOOD!
Overpriced games remind me of Left 4 Dead. I was among the first who heard about it and was expecting it all excited, but then I got my hands on the demo and found out it looked like shit and it was boring after an hour. I could have bought that to play with some friends, but the price tag.. Jesus christ, $45!! It looks like a Half Life mod for geez sake!
At least in my opinion. Today I came across to a Sims 2 fan site named Holy Simoly that announced it's second creator was invited by EA to play Sims 3. In my opinion, that's their statement that selling that stuff is okay. By inviting someone that sells stuff they have the rights, I say it's announcing they don't care. Or that they care more. I bet there are some studies telling how the amount of available custom content raises the chance to sell expansion and stuff packs. Well, at least, it was. Since it's time for Sims 3.
Today I found a pre-order Sims 3 that included a plumbbob usb memory. I so wanted that. But the salesperson didn't know the price for the game. He said it's now in 60 euros and it will probably rise a bit. I hope they crack the game soon, cause I sure as hell am NOT paying 60+ euros a game. Geez, I thought Fallout 3 was expensive. Sims 3 doesn't even look much different from 2. The furniture is ugly as hell - again and the clothes ever fuglier. What the hell are those people? 90? Floral and animal patters ARE OUT FOR GOOD!
Overpriced games remind me of Left 4 Dead. I was among the first who heard about it and was expecting it all excited, but then I got my hands on the demo and found out it looked like shit and it was boring after an hour. I could have bought that to play with some friends, but the price tag.. Jesus christ, $45!! It looks like a Half Life mod for geez sake!
Thursday
A Note To A Sick One
Hi,
I'm sorry you got sick. I don't know what caused it but I know I'm one of the reasons. I know we have a lot of microbes that itch, burn and cause sickness, but you had the biggest and deadliest.
So, you will die. We, all of us, tend to hope you'll know when it comes and you'll try to fix yourself on your own, but I'm afraid you can't. Not as long as the people around you won't do anything to help.
You're so beautiful. From the outside you're perfect. There are some marks of hard existence on your surface, but that only makes me like you even more. You're the only round one people will never call fat :)
You're my mother, my father, the giver of life. I'm sorry your life is at an end - too soon to be called fair. I was hoping it wasn't a sickness caused by people but something that couldn't be changed. And here it is, after so many years, it has caught you.
We, your children will kill you unless you kill us first. Please do that. Most of us don't deserve life anyway. But if you can, please find a way to not to destroy the other living things. They can't help themselves. We could, but won't.
I'm sorry, Earth, in behalf of some seven billion different stupid, selfish, arrogant viruses on your surface. You should have thought twice.
I'm sorry you got sick. I don't know what caused it but I know I'm one of the reasons. I know we have a lot of microbes that itch, burn and cause sickness, but you had the biggest and deadliest.
So, you will die. We, all of us, tend to hope you'll know when it comes and you'll try to fix yourself on your own, but I'm afraid you can't. Not as long as the people around you won't do anything to help.
You're so beautiful. From the outside you're perfect. There are some marks of hard existence on your surface, but that only makes me like you even more. You're the only round one people will never call fat :)
You're my mother, my father, the giver of life. I'm sorry your life is at an end - too soon to be called fair. I was hoping it wasn't a sickness caused by people but something that couldn't be changed. And here it is, after so many years, it has caught you.
We, your children will kill you unless you kill us first. Please do that. Most of us don't deserve life anyway. But if you can, please find a way to not to destroy the other living things. They can't help themselves. We could, but won't.
I'm sorry, Earth, in behalf of some seven billion different stupid, selfish, arrogant viruses on your surface. You should have thought twice.
Tuesday
Play.com Cheats
Resident Evil: Umbrella Chronicles for Wii is £14.99. If you want to pay it in Euros, it'll cost you €19,46. According to .xe, it should be €16.47.
YOU CHEATERS!
I would have bought yet another legal game, but hey... I don't want to support that kind of stuff.
What do we learn? DO NOT buy your stuff from Play. Go Pirate.
YOU CHEATERS!
I would have bought yet another legal game, but hey... I don't want to support that kind of stuff.
What do we learn? DO NOT buy your stuff from Play. Go Pirate.
Monday
You Who Fall In "Love" With A Celeb
An open question to everyone who has fallen in love (or feel some part of the feeling): Is it the actor, the human itself - or is it the character?
I had to ask myself this question after using two minutes of my life to think if I really have extra heart beat for Simon Baker or is it Patrick Jane? How much Baker is in Jane?
Was it ever really Ewan McGregor or was it just Lincoln Six Echo?
Jensen Ackles or Dean Winchester?
Gerard Butler or Dracula?
Chris Evans or Harvard Hottie?
I could go on forever, you know.
Is it real? When you get that feeling, is it real or just as simulated as the characters that get it? Could there be distant chemistry?
My theory is that sometimes someone did look at me like THAT, so I feel that familiar flutter somewhere inside me. Someone had THAT tone in his voice that made me smile the rest of the day. They wake up something inside a person, whether it's a memory trace of something that has happened or just a plain response to stimulae. So, I never blush because of Chris Evans, but rather because I once was kissed by a guy who smiled a lot like him.
A crush I had did the same weird squinch with his eyes as Gerard Butler.
I had to stay up all night to figure that out.
Oh and by the way... Be afraid, Brad Pitt. There's a godly gift to Earth in a boy who plays Luke Van Helsing in a brand new (UK) TV show called "Demons". Holy Smoochy Moo. Born as late as 1986, this boy (Christian Cooke) will stimulate response from quite many girls in the near and far future, I dare say.
I asked a friend of mine to send me a screenshot of this handsome devil for your viewing pleasure, but apparently Christian can't act enough to NOT make a weird face. There's this one, anyway.
He's too pretty now, but a few lines around the eyes and girls will be on their knees in front of him. I'd say, however, that once he hits thirty (and stays far away from drugs, booze and late nights) this boy might grow up to be something awesome! If he (in addition to the trippy way of life avoidance -part) grows a good nature and well-mannered behaviour too, he could be something.
Another show (UK), "Dead Set": I'm a great fan of everything zombie, but this one just sucked. I mean really sucked. Don't bother. Unless you like everything that yells "suck" in every frame. But hey, that's just my opinion.
Hahahah. I just figured out that Mentalist creator was the same guy that was behind Rome, of which I loved the first season. So, will I hate Mentalist after this season, too?
I had to ask myself this question after using two minutes of my life to think if I really have extra heart beat for Simon Baker or is it Patrick Jane? How much Baker is in Jane?
Was it ever really Ewan McGregor or was it just Lincoln Six Echo?
Jensen Ackles or Dean Winchester?
Gerard Butler or Dracula?
Chris Evans or Harvard Hottie?
I could go on forever, you know.
Is it real? When you get that feeling, is it real or just as simulated as the characters that get it? Could there be distant chemistry?
My theory is that sometimes someone did look at me like THAT, so I feel that familiar flutter somewhere inside me. Someone had THAT tone in his voice that made me smile the rest of the day. They wake up something inside a person, whether it's a memory trace of something that has happened or just a plain response to stimulae. So, I never blush because of Chris Evans, but rather because I once was kissed by a guy who smiled a lot like him.
A crush I had did the same weird squinch with his eyes as Gerard Butler.
I had to stay up all night to figure that out.
Oh and by the way... Be afraid, Brad Pitt. There's a godly gift to Earth in a boy who plays Luke Van Helsing in a brand new (UK) TV show called "Demons". Holy Smoochy Moo. Born as late as 1986, this boy (Christian Cooke) will stimulate response from quite many girls in the near and far future, I dare say.
I asked a friend of mine to send me a screenshot of this handsome devil for your viewing pleasure, but apparently Christian can't act enough to NOT make a weird face. There's this one, anyway.He's too pretty now, but a few lines around the eyes and girls will be on their knees in front of him. I'd say, however, that once he hits thirty (and stays far away from drugs, booze and late nights) this boy might grow up to be something awesome! If he (in addition to the trippy way of life avoidance -part) grows a good nature and well-mannered behaviour too, he could be something.
Another show (UK), "Dead Set": I'm a great fan of everything zombie, but this one just sucked. I mean really sucked. Don't bother. Unless you like everything that yells "suck" in every frame. But hey, that's just my opinion.
Hahahah. I just figured out that Mentalist creator was the same guy that was behind Rome, of which I loved the first season. So, will I hate Mentalist after this season, too?
Thursday
What The *Bleep* Happened 28th September 1994?
I got curious about M/S Estonia, the ship that sank on international waters near Finland in 1994. I was only 13 at that time, so I couldn't bother getting interested.
I saw a documentary (a very hypocritical one) about the conspiracy around the accident. After a short research I came to the conclusion that something isn't right about that night and the following months. A few finns and hundreds of Estonian and Swedish people died on Estonia, but I'm beginning to believe there was something sinister behind all this..
This is what I made of the emergency call made to the other ships. I'm sorry if it's a poor transcript, since Swedish is my third language and the recording I got my hands on was very poor and somehow I feel it's been retouched. It's amazing what Audition can find. Even the emergency call wasn't made according to the standards as you can see..
It starts with a standard procedure, Estonia is calling Europa: Notice that I tried to translate the language mistakes they made..
Estonia: Europa, Estonia... Silja Europa, Estonia
Europa: Estonia, This is Silja Europe Replying on Channel 16
(pause)
Estonia: Silja Europ*
(longer pause)
Europa: Estonia, This is Silja Eur.. Europe, on Channel 16
(static several seconds)(this is what sounds like it's edited off)
Estonia: Silja Europa, Viking Estonia
Europa: Estonia, Estonia
Estonia: Mayday, Mayday
(breaking)
Estonia: Silja Europa, Estonia
Europa: Estonia, Silja Europa, Are you repl* calling Mayday?
(Silence)
Europa: Estonia, What's going on? Can you reply?
Estonia: This is Estonia, (in Finnish:) Who it is there? (?)
Estonia: Silja Europa, Estonia
Europa: Estonia, This is Silja Europa
Estonia: (In Finnish) Good morning, do you speak Finnish?
Europa: (In Finnish) Yes, I speak Finnish
Estonia: (in Finnish) Yes, We now have a problem here. Have a bad lurch, to the right side. Believe twenty-thirty degrees. Could you come to aid and ask Viking Line to help too?
Europa: Yes, Viking Line is here behind us and they surely got the information. Could you give us your position?
Estonia: You mean ours? Yes, It's breaki*, we have a blackout. We couldn't get... I can't say it pre*
Europa: OK, clear, We'll sta.. begin taking steps.
Mariella: (In Swedish) Silja Europa, Mariella
Europa: Silja Europa, Here Marie... here* her* (chuckles) Mariella, (In Swedish) This is Europa, sixteen.
Mariella: (In Swedish) Have you cleared (?) thei.. their... their position? Do they have..(incoherent)on (Incoherent) larboard(?) side (In German) Or what?
Europa: (In Swedish) We didn't get their position, but they now must be somewhere near here. They have 20-30 -degree starboard inclination and (in English) Blackout..
Mariella: (In Swedish) Yes, Are they.. I believe.. they are(incoherent)hours from (break) are about 35 degrees from..
Europa: (In Swedish) Ok, Yes, I'm reversing(or turning/slowing, it's incoherent) the ship right now.
What were the police divers doing in that ship later when it was investigated? Why did they break into a luxury suite? What did they get from there?
Why didn't the Russian ships close by offer any help? I'm sorry, but that sounds awfully like they had something to hide since they hurried away from the site.
If they were planning to kill someone on board, why not send someone to kill them, why sink the whole ship?
What did MI6 have to investigate there?
Where did some of the saved people disappear? Did they know something and were moved to witness protection or what?
Did they find evidence of air pockets or was that just a conspiracy theory?
Was there a letter written AFTER the ship sunk?
I'm not usually sad because of people who get killed while in transit (they started the journey and knew they might die and I hate all the hypocrisy around these accidents), but that would be a horrible way to die, since the truth is obviously a bit twisted in this case. I hope most of the people who died stayed asleep, at least.
What the hell happened, really?
I saw a documentary (a very hypocritical one) about the conspiracy around the accident. After a short research I came to the conclusion that something isn't right about that night and the following months. A few finns and hundreds of Estonian and Swedish people died on Estonia, but I'm beginning to believe there was something sinister behind all this..
This is what I made of the emergency call made to the other ships. I'm sorry if it's a poor transcript, since Swedish is my third language and the recording I got my hands on was very poor and somehow I feel it's been retouched. It's amazing what Audition can find. Even the emergency call wasn't made according to the standards as you can see..
It starts with a standard procedure, Estonia is calling Europa: Notice that I tried to translate the language mistakes they made..
Estonia: Europa, Estonia... Silja Europa, Estonia
Europa: Estonia, This is Silja Europe Replying on Channel 16
(pause)
Estonia: Silja Europ*
(longer pause)
Europa: Estonia, This is Silja Eur.. Europe, on Channel 16
(static several seconds)(this is what sounds like it's edited off)
Estonia: Silja Europa, Viking Estonia
Europa: Estonia, Estonia
Estonia: Mayday, Mayday
(breaking)
Estonia: Silja Europa, Estonia
Europa: Estonia, Silja Europa, Are you repl* calling Mayday?
(Silence)
Europa: Estonia, What's going on? Can you reply?
Estonia: This is Estonia, (in Finnish:) Who it is there? (?)
Estonia: Silja Europa, Estonia
Europa: Estonia, This is Silja Europa
Estonia: (In Finnish) Good morning, do you speak Finnish?
Europa: (In Finnish) Yes, I speak Finnish
Estonia: (in Finnish) Yes, We now have a problem here. Have a bad lurch, to the right side. Believe twenty-thirty degrees. Could you come to aid and ask Viking Line to help too?
Europa: Yes, Viking Line is here behind us and they surely got the information. Could you give us your position?
Estonia: You mean ours? Yes, It's breaki*, we have a blackout. We couldn't get... I can't say it pre*
Europa: OK, clear, We'll sta.. begin taking steps.
Mariella: (In Swedish) Silja Europa, Mariella
Europa: Silja Europa, Here Marie... here* her* (chuckles) Mariella, (In Swedish) This is Europa, sixteen.
Mariella: (In Swedish) Have you cleared (?) thei.. their... their position? Do they have..(incoherent)on (Incoherent) larboard(?) side (In German) Or what?
Europa: (In Swedish) We didn't get their position, but they now must be somewhere near here. They have 20-30 -degree starboard inclination and (in English) Blackout..
Mariella: (In Swedish) Yes, Are they.. I believe.. they are(incoherent)hours from (break) are about 35 degrees from..
Europa: (In Swedish) Ok, Yes, I'm reversing(or turning/slowing, it's incoherent) the ship right now.
What were the police divers doing in that ship later when it was investigated? Why did they break into a luxury suite? What did they get from there?
Why didn't the Russian ships close by offer any help? I'm sorry, but that sounds awfully like they had something to hide since they hurried away from the site.
If they were planning to kill someone on board, why not send someone to kill them, why sink the whole ship?
What did MI6 have to investigate there?
Where did some of the saved people disappear? Did they know something and were moved to witness protection or what?
Did they find evidence of air pockets or was that just a conspiracy theory?
Was there a letter written AFTER the ship sunk?
I'm not usually sad because of people who get killed while in transit (they started the journey and knew they might die and I hate all the hypocrisy around these accidents), but that would be a horrible way to die, since the truth is obviously a bit twisted in this case. I hope most of the people who died stayed asleep, at least.
What the hell happened, really?
If Yellowstone Goes..
I wonder if this late Yellowstone activity I'm sorry it's North America that will suffer mostly. All of us will get our butts freezed, but a lot of people - And ANIMALS - will suffer. Why can't that volcano be somewhere in the deserts of a nation that I wouldn't be sorry losing?
If Yellowstone decides to blow up, I'd be more than happy to welcome everyone with ties to my country to stay here if any of us survive. It would be cold, but there is solid granite underneath the toes.
Oh, and there was a shooting on the other side of the road. Three dead including the shooter. What a happy place to live, this is. I so regret moving here.
If Yellowstone decides to blow up, I'd be more than happy to welcome everyone with ties to my country to stay here if any of us survive. It would be cold, but there is solid granite underneath the toes.
Oh, and there was a shooting on the other side of the road. Three dead including the shooter. What a happy place to live, this is. I so regret moving here.
Tuesday
I Support Israel
It's been going on for most of the "civilized" world and it will end only if the other side is gone forever. After Arafat died, it's gone to dogs and it's come to this, so this is it.
War is never good and will only result in deaths (what I actually find refreshing knowing the state Earth is in). A friend of mine said he wouldn't feel sorry even for the children that would die "because they're been brainwashed since infancy". I must agree, I'm sorry to say. I'm against every religion and especially mixing your children with all that nonsense, so this isn't even racist talk.
The only guilty ones in Gaza and surrounding area are the ones who say "god wills it (in any language)". The others just get caught in the middle and will suffer.
If a side must be chosen, I choose Israel. They (or most of them) at least, have learned to not to say "god wills it" and have tried to work out some kind of a peace.
War is never good and will only result in deaths (what I actually find refreshing knowing the state Earth is in). A friend of mine said he wouldn't feel sorry even for the children that would die "because they're been brainwashed since infancy". I must agree, I'm sorry to say. I'm against every religion and especially mixing your children with all that nonsense, so this isn't even racist talk.
The only guilty ones in Gaza and surrounding area are the ones who say "god wills it (in any language)". The others just get caught in the middle and will suffer.
If a side must be chosen, I choose Israel. They (or most of them) at least, have learned to not to say "god wills it" and have tried to work out some kind of a peace.
Monday
The Cab - One Of THOSE Days
Holy poo their album version of "One Of THOSE Days" sucks.
I heard the song when playing Rock Band and I was so disappointed at the album version I've been trashing the album to anyone who cares to listen to my ramblings.
Do NOT buy the album because of that song if you liked the one in Rock Band. You'll save some money.
I still haven't played it Medium Guitar 100%. I Suck.
I heard the song when playing Rock Band and I was so disappointed at the album version I've been trashing the album to anyone who cares to listen to my ramblings.
Do NOT buy the album because of that song if you liked the one in Rock Band. You'll save some money.
I still haven't played it Medium Guitar 100%. I Suck.
Friday
How To Spend Your Two First Days Of The Year
After playing 18 hours of "Frets on Fire X" for two days, I'm still up to it. It doesn't matter that I play on easy. Metallica's One still kills me on easy. An excellent way to spend the first couple of days of your year. And yes, XBOX360 and PS2 guitars work well with this. I wonder how long it takes for the FoFX team to get sued by Activision or Harmonix.
BTW: After hearing Joe Satriani's If I could fly for the 20th time, it still doesn't annoy me.
After 98 hours of gameplay of Fallout 3 and third time playing since 22nd December, I'm still hooked. I don't understand why.
Happy this year and good luck with your life this year.
BTW: After hearing Joe Satriani's If I could fly for the 20th time, it still doesn't annoy me.
After 98 hours of gameplay of Fallout 3 and third time playing since 22nd December, I'm still hooked. I don't understand why.
Happy this year and good luck with your life this year.
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