Another Hurricane

Well,

Nature gets really back at the US for polluting, destroying and a million other things the government and people of the US have decided for their own good. I'm glad. Maybe this will teach the all-mighty-USA-people (I know they call themselves "americans" but so are the others who live on the two continent - so I'm not using it) a lesson they should remember for a couple of years. Does anyone remember how big they made 911? In the end it was just a series of stupid ignorance cased that led to to the destruction of the twin towers. That killed some firemen (I'm sure their relatives knew that being a fireman would carry a risk of death) and other people. So the fucking what? The whole 911 incident was about the Pentagon being a bunch of dumb asses.

What's funny about war and stuff is the fact that in the end there's a person that's getting all the blame. Take Bush for instance, he signs the forms his crew does and gives the final word, but he is - nevertheless - just one guy. Go ahead, people of US, blame Bush if that makes you feel better. But if all of the people in the US would state what they think and act what they think, he wouldn't be there giving those orders but there would be someone else. There's always got to be someone else to blame. All the 255 million (or whatever) people in the US could state "we just want to stay here and try not to rule the whole world". So stop whining if you get something back sometimes - whether it's nature or some other country trying to take the highest rank in the world.

US, deal with your own problems, such as the tens of thousands of homeless people, the crime rates, your financial situation, the kids in foster care, the healthcare system and get your own people happy with the money that's in the country and THEN go and try to rule the world, ok?

I'm so sick and tired hearing news in my own country - cuz the news is mainly about the closing hurricane Rita. I don't fuckin' care! I will NOT donate, I will not feel sorry and I hope no one else will too. Check your fucking front yard people. There are SUVs and sports cars, you like it big. That's your own fault that you need as much oil as you do because you drive big cars that need a lot of fuel to keep going. You and your SUV's "for the carpools and taking the kids to their hobbies". Take a look at your own country.

My fellow countrymen are so suckers for everything that comes from North America that it makes me sick! I hate it when little white boys dress like hip-hop stars and speak bad English just to look cool. Mostly the result is the opposite: not cool. I hate the teenage girls who think that the fact - that they get free and good education, free school meals to senior high school, free college - everyone has the opportunity here. The government gives as much as 600 dollars a month just for them to stay in school - is not enough, they want to go to "america" and be fucking supermodels. We can go to the doctor and pay 18 dollars three times a year and they can go as much as they like. If my people goes to dentist, they can either choose the public dentists that goes with the three-time-yearly-pay or private dentist which costs a lot - but the government returns some at least 75 % of the paid amount.

We have high taxes and low wages, but we don't have to pay our brains out if we get sick. We get cuts in our benefits, but the people in my country don't whine - not out loud at least - because we know we have chosen the ones who decide the budget and the cuts that are made.

US earns - what - like a million times more than my little country and they still cannot afford to teach their own people. They can afford war.

And why the hell are you whining "for the lost soldiers in Iraq"?! The people who join the military have to understand that one day they could end up in the middle of front line. Why their families whine for the decicions the soldiers have made? I couldn't care a shit about a soldier abroad, because they have chosen their career. I do computers, they do guns, that's it. And remember, whiners, you could have a word, all you 100 million brainwashed flag worshippers.

I just went for the doctor today. She checked me and told me she wanted me to go to an ultrasound scan for the weird bumb in my belly. That visit cost me 18 dollars. Nothing else. I don't need to pay for the scan, I don't need to pay for further visits this year and what's best, I don't need to beg for charity. Everything in the US seems to be either insurance or charity. Here I know that once I've finished my education I'll go back to work and pay for someone else in my turn. If we go to war we're mostly done because our little country cannot afford self defence. We have 60 fighter planes, tanks and a small army but that wouldn't keep the US out of here for more than a few minutes if they decided that they wanted this land. But I can sleep my nights in peace. There is no point in anyone invading my homeland because we have nothing here, just fields, lakes and hills. No natural resources like oil.

Dark thoughts today

I'm worried for my pet iguana. More than I'm worried about myself. What if he dies? How could I ever look at his terrarium empty, though most of the time I can't stand the little thing he does. How can one hate and love someone the same time? Iggy is sick and needs to be taken to a vet again. The last time he went was a week ago. I hate vets, maybe because sometimes pets taken to a vet will never come back and I don't want to give the terminal sentence to my pet. He's too little and too green to be put to sleep.

I know that if that day comes, that he's too sick to be cured, I will let him go. Right now I wouldn't even want to think of it.

It's fall, finally. Now I can say it, because it has been very cold for days and the leaves are turning yellow. I miss the real colors, though - Red and orange. But it has to be very cold at night - below zero - for the leaves to turn red.

It's two days to the release of Sims 2 Nightlife. Bet I won't sleep the night before that.

"This is how you remind me of what I really am."

Do you think there're people on other planets?

"The Universe is a pretty big place... And the one thing I know about nature is it hates to waste anything. So I guess I'd say if it is just us, an awful lot of space is going to waste."

The movie Contact is one of my favorites for a long time. I read the script today just to spend my time between calls to the doctor. I've had this weirdy lump in my belly and on friday it started to hurt. I mean really hurt. So I went to the doctor's today and they didn't get an appointment. Their "books were full". I got an appointment on 21th September and 'til then I've just going to have to wait. What if my appendix decides to blow up in the mean time? Am I going to die? Some have died while waiting.

It's silly, I know. Only a few die. But anyway.

Gives me the creeps.

After our break- up two weeks ago, we've been trying to cope. I can't help it, though, that I keep having break-up -dreams night after night and I've been thinking if it would have been better for me to just take the first available apartment and get my butt out of his life for good.

I heard such things about his mind and the things he does, that I couldn't believe what I was hearing. That reminded me of how little we know about each other anyways. Well, what I know about him, mainly. I tell him everything - I even showed him this blog but he just kept letting me outside. Maybe that was the problem anyways. I've given him a 100% of my being and I don't even know how much he's given me.

It seems like an awful waste of time.

" I was given something wonderful.
Something that changed me. A vision
of the universe that made it
overwhelmingly clear just how tiny
and insignificant -- and at the same
time how rare and precious we all
are. A vision... that tells us we
belong to something greater than
ourselves... that we're not -- that
none of us -- is alone."

Sometimes Thoughts Just Go..

I just noticed, how CSI's Warrick (Gary Dourdan) has blueish eyes. I know the eye color hasn't got much to do with the skin color, but that surprised me. It could be possible, that there has been someone in his family - like - a hundred years ago, who had blue eyes, but anyways. I can only imagine how much fun it is to be smart and to understand things. Imagine the pleasure of new findings..

I have to return the JAVA course final test today. I've finished it, but I just don't want to send it because I could't answer some stuff and I really, really wanted to score 'cause I was trying to learn this time.

Good Morning, New Orleans

It's funny how the nature is always the culprit.

Last year it was the tsunami in Asia, in 2005, it's Katarina in the USA. You can't help it, really, and those events will repeat themselves year after year. I know this will hurt many people and some may say I'm being heartless, but this is the truth: nature has a right to do that. It was here long before us and will stay here after we are gone. We are a product, which went terribly wrong and now the nature fixing it.

I know I might be thinking differently if it happened here, but I do think that a) we deserve it - all of us and b) it's good for our little planet. I want you to think some things the other way this time... What if Hitler didn't destroy half of the jewish population in Europe? That would mean - what - two times the destroyed amount of people walking on earth. What if there was a cure for AIDS and it was available for everyone? Think that each woman in some of the countries will give birth to two to nine children. What if all those children survived and made more children? This is harsh, I know, but I think of it as a nature's way of trying to cope with it's mistakes.

And that's what we are, dear fellow people, mistakes. I'm glad to announce the whole new world library, the Internet, that I'm glad of nature's response to our irresponsibility - to my irresponsibility. I took a two -hour bath three days ago. I didn't presort my garbage yesterday. Katrina killed maybe thousands of people and destroyed one of the most beautiful cities in the world. You went to work alone in your car. And so did your neighbor. The tsunami last year took people.

I wonder if anyone else sees the pattern here.

No matter how smart monkeys we are, no matter how much money we have or where we live, nature WILL find its way to show us we are really nothing but a bulk of meat useless to other species than bugs that eventually will own us. Make a cure and there will be bacteria twice as dangerous.

Some of you have probably seen the movie The Day After Tomorrow?

You should. Definitely.