What The F Is Wrong With People?

I just saw a documentary about the man who was pregnant.

They wanted a baby. They got one.

What's the problem?

Oh, the fact that Thomas used to be a woman?

I have always seen homosexuality as a line of code in genes, not a mental disorder or something criminal. This is the same thing, something in the code (and no, I'm not a programmer/coder): He was born a man, but his genes produced a female body. It's not a miracle, it's not gross, it's just something that had different boolean values. Nature has done some other weird stuff, so why would a man growing inside a female body be gross? I don't get it.

Don't think of me gay happy. I'm not. I see mother-father (even if hormonally produced) families as the default ones, and I don't approve homosexual couples adopting children. Not because it would be awfully wrong, but because there are people like the ones who keep on harassing Thomas and Nancy Beatie. Beatie's daughter will so be bullied at school and it pains me.

Just thinking..

I Hate Being Erica

So, there's this new show, called Being Erica.

I hate it.I fucking hate it.

I hate all these things about people who get more and more shit every day from their family and more: from their friends. Episode five of Being Erica made me want to kill every woman on this planet.

A good reminder why I don't like women and have only one female friend. I've been deceived, bullied and overlooked by girls and women all my life and seeing one woman - even fictinally - tortured by other women makes me want to puke!

I hate women. The only women I stand are my sisters (partly because I have to and they have more in their heads than the current lipstick fashion and pooping children) and my friend L, who doesn't like the woman stuff either.

However, the crappy show has made me think. What if I'm 32 in just four years, I probably won't be married, employed nor with children. Then I'll be glad I don't have bitches as friends.

What Men & Women Say And What They Mean

What men say and what they mean?

1. My mom is the most important thing in my life

I'm gay but not willing to come out yet

2. I haven't found the right woman yet

I'm gay but not willing to come out yet. Or I'm a dick who beats his women or demands too much or is just a regular dick.

3. There's only one woman for me and I haven't found her yet

I have commitment issues. Or: I'm gay and not willing to come out yet

4. I'm happy with her, she completes me as a person

She sleeps with me, doesn't fart in front of me and always wears make-up

5. We don't need to get married

Cause I'm afraid of divorce, custody battle and losing

6. I like you

I'd like to have sex with you

7. I think I love you

This will definitely get me between your legs

8. It's not you, it's me.

It's me. I want to keep on bed-hopping in hopes of finding someone more skinnier, prettier and richer than you.

9. I love you

I love you. Or at least I think I do. At least for now. This is not, like, forever.

10. We're through

We're through. Don't start crying, it's no use. You have no use to me.

11. Should we forget all others and start seeing only each other?

You're going to forget all others and be mine. I'm going to keep a reserve.

12. Will you marry me?

Shit, should have asked about the prenup first.

13. You're pregnant? Really? Wow, I mean, wow.

Fuck. Shit. No, no, no. How could you do this to me?

14. I'm not ready to be a father

I don't want kids! They smell, are noisy and cost money!

15. I don't want this baby, but I want you

You better have an abortion

16. You'll be a great mom, I'm sure!

But I won't be here seeing that

17. Want to move in together?

I need someone to share the rent and since I already sleep with you, wouldn't mind. I hope you're into cleaning.

18. I'm sure my mom will like you!

You better look sweet and innocent or she'll eat you alive

19. Don't worry, at least my dad will like you!

He'll like anything with boobs and blonde hair...

20. How many boyfriends have you had?

You better lie.

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What women say and what they mean?

1. My dad is the most important thing in my life

I haven't had a real boyfriend yet.

2. I haven't found the right man yet

I can't trust anyone, really.

3. There's only one man for me and I haven't found him yet

I have too high standards. Actually, you'd look great with black hair.

4. I'm happy with him, he completes me as a person

I can fart, burb and yawn in front of him and don't need to prented I like ice hockey.

5. We don't need to get married

At least not this year

6. I like you

I love you, but can't say it yet or you might get scared and run away

7. I think I love you

Don't flip out, don't flip out, don't flip...

8. It's not you, it's me.

It's you. You don't shower, you're not giving me enough attention and your wallet is not as fat as I thought it was.

9. I love you

I love you. Will you marry me and give me four, no three children?

10. We're through

I'm testing you. If you say "ok", we're through, but if you're willing to fight, I might take you back.

11. Should we forget all others and start seeing only each other?

You're going to erase all female contacts from you phone and never talk to another woman again! I'll keep Dave and Mark, they are my exes, but they are my friends.

12. Will you marry me?

Why the hell do I have to be the one to ask?

13. I'm pregnant.

You better at least act happy.

14. I'm not ready to be a mother

I am, really, but I'm testing you.

15. I don't want this baby, but I want you

I'm not ready to be a mother. I'd rather have you.

16. You'll be a great dad, I'm sure!

At least your wallet will be.

17. Want to move in together?

I can keep a better eye on you if we live together.

18. I'm sure my mom will like you!

You're handsome and I've already told her you're rich.

19. Don't worry, at least my dad will like you!

I told him you're rich and that's enough for him.

20. How many girlfriends have you had?

I'm testing you. You better not lie, 'cause I'll find out the truth eventually.

Pro Life or Pro Choice

In short: I'm Pro Life with Choice

But I'm not rubbing it to your face. Every woman has her right. Ever since I've been a teenager, I've know I'd put my baby up for adoption if I would get knocked up. Besides, I've always been careful enough to keep myself clean from The Pill and STD's. Financially it would be safe to be a teenage mother in this country, you'd only need some some humble attitude and strong will, so being a teenager in this country, would not be a reason.

If I got knocked up by a one night stand, I'd go Life & Adoption..

If I got knocked up in an abusive relationship, I'd go Life & Adoption..

If I got raped, I'd still go Life & Adoption.. It wouldn't be my or the baby's fault.

If I had no money to support myself, I'd go Life & Adoption..

If my baby would have something wrong, I'd go Choice. The only time I'd go choice. A life lived only half or without knowing who you are, unable to ask and unable to understand is not a life. A life lived as a burden to other people would not be a life.

The reason for this post is the numerous sites each defending their own side.
I found a site dedicated to a law that would force abortion agencies to let the parents of a minor know. The site introduced tens of calls to Planned Parenthood in which a voice altered "teen" called to check if they would offer her abortion allthough her "boyfriend" was 22 (In the US, it's called a statutory rape). The only thing I learned from those tapes was that most of the ones who worked on that line didn't know about that law or were too bored in their job to actually listen to the caller. I found a site with horrible pictures of aborted fetuses. I found a site claiming that anonymous abortion on a clinic without parents knowing is much better than butcher abortions (I agree).. A few girls die over septicemia or some complication, but that is almost always the result of their own actions. It's like taking a vacation in Iraq: Lot's of sun and sand, but you might end up dead any day. If you're ready to have sex, you're ready to suffer the consequences and it might include a death. You might have HIV instead of a child, would like that? Decisions, decisions...

So, I'm pro life with Choice and Let Others Choose Their Side.

Flow

Today I decided that I want to go to Santorini. That's somewhere in the mediterranean sea - in Greece - I think. Why Santorini? Ever since I started thinking as a child and understood what it feels like when something takes "your breath away", I have loved four things above everything: sunsets, sea, thunder and volcanoes. You can get three of those in Santorini - and if lucky, thunder too. I saw a picture of white and putty houses with blue rooftops, bare ground... I think that's the place I ought to see once in my life. So, Santorini, you're calling me, but I can answer that call no sooner than after a few years of saving money and dieting. But I promise to myself I'll be there one day.

If there's someone who'd take me there, please give me a call. But you'd have to be at least 5ft9 and look like Ewan McGregor or Colin Farrel.

It's spring. Cold, but it's spring. And spring is showing it's pretty face under the snow. All the dog poop and litter. How nice.

Another thing that's in my mind is the fact that everyone around me seems to be more or less pregnant. I just see them everywhere - walking with their cute little bellies.. haha! Don't get me wrong! That doesn't do the trick for me. I'm not like "aaw", but more like "eew".. I hate it when they turn inwards and think that everyone else is as excited as they are. It's quite the opposite to me, I can't stand kids yelling everywhere, crying, demanding. You have kids and your life is ruined. And what a few pregnancies do to a woman! They lose their mind, their world becomes kids-centered and they go monsterous on their men. One pregnant friend of mine once said I'm being selfish when I don't want children and cannot join her happiness. I can't help it. I see children as a burden to their parents - so I'm pretty sure I will never have kids. There are many reasons but I think the real reason is I that believe I will become the same as my mother. I believe I could never hit or hurt anything that is a part of me, but I can't be sure. My sister is doing well and has passed her genes (and my genes as well) forward. Maybe that's the way it ought to be. And besides, here I am, 25 and not a single marriage proposal. My time will soon be over - because who would have kids when over 30, one would be too old to understand them as they grow up. I have so many plans, so many things to do before I'm too old and the "kids" thing isn't even on that list right now. I wish I'd grow up and want a suburb house, SUV and four kids.

I applied to medschool this spring.

Wishful thinking, I can hardly manage division.

American Woman

An irishman once told me I'm too much of an American Woman. He told me I walk, talk and act like an american woman. I took it as an insult. It's like he told me I'm high maintenance! I'm not one of those prentious bitches who insist that the car door is opened or they won't get out of the car, who want jewellery for anniversaries or be married after two years of dating. This is what I wanted for my 24th birthday. And I finally had something for women's day too: Finnish army combat boots. I'm happy with that.

Eek, gotta run. I have classes & I'm already late.

Tune of the moment:

Lenny Kravitz - American Woman

Annoyed

Okay,

There's a thing or two in the world that annoys me. First, I'd like everyone to know that I don't appreciate people who talk, talk, talk and talk and finally won't actually DO something. One friend of mine - well, actually J's - has been talking that he used to play airsoft and he'd come anytime. Today J asked him to join us tomorrow and he made up the worst excuses ever! I hate excuses. Why can't people just say "No, I'm not coming 'cause I feel more like sitting down here at home and watch porn." At least that would be honest. When I was absent from my classes and the teacher asked why I wasn't there I said "I was playing Sims 2 all night and didn't feel like coming."

Adrian, don't read this following text (bollocks, I know you'd be reading it anyway - but remember - this is not about you and your lovely wife - though you have children):

I feel truly sorry for the people who have children. Their excuses are the worst. "The kids blaa, blaa, blaa." And then they whine about never having time for theirselves. Well, go get kids, that should give you some more freetime.

There are three things that make me furious: 1. Couples with children never can think further than their own front door. Or the diapers. I have friends who are all "you should get kids too - it's wonderful" and while saying that they sit at home thinking that "I'm a good parent when I spend all the time with my kids" and gaining weight (I have a reason - they don't), not taking care of themselves, whining about money, how they haven't had sex in three months etc. 2. Women who think they are the center of the world after having a baby. They are playing martyrs like "I'm so-ho-o-o-o alone with the kids - I can't even go out when I'm stuck here in the suburbs." Well fuck you, you made the choice! 3. Couples who meet couples. Why should I be friends with J's friends' girlfriend when we have nothing in common! Geez! I don't feel like going for a drink with them 'cause they simply don't interest me. I have never made excuses with them, I've said "I don't feel like going."

Oh, and also, I hate the people who say: "Well, you don't have kids - how can you know." I've seen it enough. People (usually the ones who cannot afford it - like my sister) have children and then endlessly whine about not having the money. They choose. Kids are nice, but I've seen it tens of times: the woman is at home spending the money our lovely society gives them for free by sending messages to the stupid television chat show and then crying that they don't have the money to pay the phone bill!

And the ones who whine about never getting the chance to go to the club and dance the night away...? There are at least 3 registrated nanny agencies in this country - agencies that let people hire a nanny for like six hours with a reasonable prize! If they can afford a night partying they can afford a nanny. Geez.

Oh, and what about the women who spend most of their time nagging to their husbands (or bf's) on some stupid matters just because they are too lazy to move out of the house and meet other people by themselves. Those women used to be independent but when they have children THEY turn into little girls again.

And those mother+kid/mother+kid - stuff? Why can't people just be friends after having a baby: the couple with children are more interested in talking about their kids and how one of them made it's first non-yellow poop the day before yesterday... Is it really that after having children people turn inside and find nothing interesting anymore? Young mothers always want friends who are with children. Why? Because their world is so small they think they can make friends with people whom with they discuss their weird menstruation?! ARRRGGHH!

What about the mothers who insist their men being home and miserable too? My sister - again- is a good example: she kept whining all the time - she needed money for new top coat for the kids, a larger car, second car, a dog, another baby carrier.. her husband said byebye and moved in with a woman with no children.

I went out for coffee with a friend of mine (the one with children AND a life) and bumped into this woman she knows. Well, this woman started whining: "I've had Emma 3 months ago and my body still hasn't recovered". It's fucking normal, idiot! You've pushed a fuckin' water melon out of yourself!

Conclusion: women with children are mad cows. End of story.

Yes, every day that goes by I thank gods for having enough brain for not having any children. With this attitude I'd be the worst mum ever.