Today I..

Put that thing in pieces, changed the processor, fixed stuff and put it all in one. And it took me five hours.

Well, that sure was a day well spent.

I also have a new favorite pop song which I listened the five hours I was fighting with the laptop.

Goo Goo Dolls - Before It's Too Late

Three Memories

These things just came into my mind today. All of these happened years ago, but suddenly they were in my mind - like they were yesterday:

There was a guy I had a crush on. We were working on some project together when I had to go home. I left in a hurry and had to go through the back door. It was winter, cold as hell. It was snowing. I had a portable cd-player with me and I put some music on. I turned the music loud, put some mittens on and started walking. I took some ten or more steps and got scared the shit out of me. It was my project mate who took me by the hand, pushed me to the wall and pushed himself to me. Then it was him leaning towards me, putting his hands to the wall and bent down. I remember him being at least ten inches taller than me. He had blonde hair and grey eyes. And boy, he was a good kisser - not that I knew a lot about kissing then - but anyway.

The other memory, it was in senior high I suppose, when I was doing some homework at the school lounge (pictured, btw- by the table I marked with a red arrow.) I was doing some dna stuff, trying to memorize what the teacher taught as I felt someone standing behind me. I felt his breath in my hair when he whispered: "Can I kiss you?" I - being the idiot I am, said: "I'll have to think about it." This was the guy I had been hanging out with, going out for drives and stuff. I don't remember his name anymore, but I remember his face. He never did kiss me, because we were interrupted by some of his friends. I hate myself for being that kind of an idiot.

The last and the newest one: I was out for a walk with this guy. It was late evening, late fall. Cold. It was a starry night and we walked to the pier and just talked and talked and looked at the stars. I don't even know how late it was when we finally went to his place, but I was freezing. So he took my clothes off and tucked me into his bed. And there we slept until his brother came to wake up us in the morning. Him holding me, like I was something he might lose any second.

Sometimes you just want to stay in your memories. Today was like that.

Elizabeth: The Golden Age

I went to see this a few days ago.

And I took J with me - a big mistake. Do not take your significant others to watch this movie unless you're sure he likes a girl-flick. Since this is one. The ending was shitty, but I really did like this movie. And I simply love Cate Blanchett. There's really something different in that woman. She's running middle age and is gorgeous. I wish I'd look like that when I get older.

If you like other historical dramas, go see it. It might not be worth your money, but it's worth your time.

A long long time ago

I had a little movie marathon of my own. The results:

A Bridge to Terabithia

Surprised me positively. Like really. I thought it was just another movie added to the long line of fantasy/whatevers, but for a kids movie it was rather good. Though the sappy ending could have been avoided by just making the boy drown. Or someone else.

Is this the bridge to the Gigabyte? Or something. The name annoys me.

Shrek The Third

I actually laughed. A waaaay better than Shrek 2.

Reeker

Why, why, why the hell did they have to actually point the details in the ending as if EVERYONE didn't already realize what happened. And I'm pretty damn sure they used exactly the same set as in Identity.

Good material. Especially the jumping through the mirror -part made me laugh. Check it out.

Reaping

I fell asleep before half of the movie was gone. I really did fall asleep. And it was around 7 pm, when I went to see it! I managed to watch the end.. Besides, I never did realize Hilary Swank is a girl. Creepy. The ending, however seems to have been copied of several other films in which !!SPOILER!! The character ends up impregnated with some devil seed !!SPOILER!!..

Return to the House on Haunted Hill

Shit, shit shit shitshitshitshitshitshit. Who the hell actually PAID these actors?

Happy Birthday!

So,

Happy birthday, Gerard Butler. May your other 38 years be filled with love, joy and happiness. And at least one really good movie (without singing).. Also: Steve Zahn turns 40 (!!). I would've figured he'd be something closer to 35 than 40. But a human mind is an erroeous fun. Or what ever the heck the correct word is.

For the birthday boys (and girls):

When forty winters shall besiege thy brow,
And dig deep trenches in thy beauty's field,
Thy youth's proud livery so gazed on now,
Will be a tattered weed of small worth held:
Then being asked, where all thy beauty lies,
Where all the treasure of thy lusty days;
To say within thine own deep sunken eyes,
Were an all-eating shame, and thriftless praise.
How much more praise deserved thy beauty's use,
If thou couldst answer 'This fair child of mine
Shall sum my count, and make my old excuse'
Proving his beauty by succession thine.
This were to be new made when thou art old,
And see thy blood warm when thou feel'st it cold.

And that, my friends, is something that came out of Shakespeare's feather (pen).

Dang..

My ex boyfriend will look like this fella in 20 years.

I thought him cute when we were teenagers, but I guess he'll look better growing old..

My So Called Life

I remembered this litte show..

That had - haha - Jared Leto - in it.

Suddenly it's everything about Jared Leto. Like a week ago my sister tells me she is a Jared Leto fan. My other sister called to tell me about Leto's band 30 seconds to Mars (which I've known since 2005), two days ago I watched Alexander after remembering "it was this cute-as-hell guy playing Alexander's lover" and it turned out to be Jared Leto. What's up with the sudden change of the occupant of my thoughts?

He's 36. I can't believe he is 36. He's old. I'll be old in ten years. Getting old sucks.

And I hate Claire Danes for kissing him. Not that I would want to kiss him myself. According to my source, Jared Leto is a frequent d-train passenger who loves himself too much, raises himself above others and knows he's way too good for everyone "ordinary". Or not. Who knows. Maybe he's the sweetest guy, shy and humble.. Or not. Most likely not. Of the 40 Americans I know (of which two are somewhat famous) I know only one who doesn't annoy me just by being himself. I hate the fake smiles everyone seems to have. And the small talk. Asking "How are you" without even wanting to know if you really are okay. Saying "like" in every possible occasion. "Honestly", or "To tell you the truth."


To change the topic, let's go to:

Fate.

I pay attention to something. Suddenly it becomes the top news a few days later.

I'm starting to believe everything is planned in advance and there's nothing I can do. What ever I choose, the outcome has already been decided. No matter how badly I screw up, somehow the sun shines a few days later.

I think of someone and they call me. Or we meet somewhere.

Like Jared Leto haunting me. Suddenly he's everywhere. Not here though, of which I'm sort of happy. It would be like he's the king of Egypt and I'm yesterdays' leftovers..

Oh..

By the way, my blog came up as a search result when somebody did a search on "I slept with Jensen Ackles". Google bot thinks I did, however, because I talked about sleeping with someone who sung Enrique Iglesias' Hero to me and about Jensen Ackles in a post. Thumbs up, Google Bot!

Our Own Idiot

There has been a lot happening today in our little country.

A schoolboy shot eight, injured at least 5 people and shot himself in a school shooting in southern Finland. The 18-year old boy was known for his ravings at the internet service You Tube by the (now removed) account "natural selector 89". Today his nick is sturmgeist89.

Please, do NOT start blaming the video games, movies, music or whatever... There are gazillion of us who do play violent games and we're not into killing anyone. He was just a messed up kid who would have probably spent 5 years in jail and then released back to the society. If he didn't die.

Great country. I bet now half of the new games get banned, metal detectors introduced in schools and stuff like that..

Snow

It started snowing..

... and it's turning into shlush.

Also:

I hate Angelina Jolie and her stupid fake accent in Alexander (which I watched again after realizing Jared Leto was in it)..

1408 & Resident Evil: Extinction

We went to see 1408 yesterday. I liked it. I liked it very much, especially the end. The woman has a priceless expression on her face. Go see it and you know what I mean ;)

We also saw Extinction. Which I liked. I just loved the way it ended! I have to keep my fingers crossed to see Milla yet in another Resident Evil. No one else than Milla can be Alice, in my opinion..

Go see. Could be worth your money...

All Hallow's Eve

The Finns celebrate Halloween a few days later than the Americans.

Well, technically it's not the same party, but basically it's about the dead people.

They reported a poltergeist event in the local paper. We're visiting J's mum (we sleep in separate beds here, which is hilarious) and they have their own village paper where the museum ghost was apparently seen and it rolled all the carpets on the floor. Creepy, eh?

We went for a nice walk to the cemetery where J's father is buried. That cemetery is the most beautiful place on christmas eve with the thousands of candles. Last year it was snowing and all those candles made it look so alive I cannot believe it. The headstones were lit and the shadows of the trees were dancing.. wow. I wish I can take a picture this year.

Most Beautiful Eyes On Earth - Males Over 25 And Jared Leto

.. is yet one more added to my favorite eyed DDG guys -list.

I didn't realize he's that old already. Ten years my senior! :) It's funny that he's been around for ever and I never noticed how beautiful his eyes are. And that dark hair (funny, I remebered him as a blonde..) suits him SO WELL.

He looked cute even after he gained 30 pounds or so to a crappy movie..

I actually didn't realize it was him in a TV series I used to watch as a teenager: My So Called Life which - I think - spawned Claire Danes (who hasn't changed a bit since 1994) and presented Jared's brother Shannon (who the fuck gives their son a girls' name?)... Which made me wonder how can two people from the same parents be so different? The other is beautiful and the other is... well.. is.

I also learned he had a part in the movie Alexander - which I bought on DVD a long time ago. Of course I didn't notice him because I was drooling over the adonis -lookalike Colin Farrell. It's just so funny you don't see someone until something happens.

Something happened to me.

Well, anyway, the list of the Most Beautiful Eyes On Earth - Males Over 25

1. Daniel Craig
2. Jensen Ackles
3. Jared Leto
4. Ewan McGregor
5. Gerard "Gerry Butler"

I Want Snow :(

I do not understand why I'm waiting for the snow. The winter here is dark and long and I will probably get sick of the darkness and the coldness before january, but I want it to snow so badly.

My heart broke: I saw a duck boy swimming next to a dead duck girl. The boy tried to lift her head up from under the water and pushing her towards the shore. Then it quacked three times with such a heartbreaking voice my day was ruined. I was late from work that day anyway and I stayed to watch him give up. As the girl ducks body was drifting along the current, the boy stopped quacking. Then it yelled one more time and then went to the others. I wonder if it remembers that girl duck. Or did it really feel sad or was it just me humanizing the event..?

And now to the lighter thoughts of the day:

Imagine a guy so handsome you keep thinking that you must be dreaming - that there cannot be such a guy alive on earth.

Imagine the guy holding a guitar.

Imagine the heavenly blue, big eyes, long lashes and black hair.

Imagine him looking at you as if he was the shyest guy on earth.

Imagine him whispering "Close your eyes".

Hear him singing to you hitting perfect notes.

Now wake up.