Sunday

Phantom

Today I spent a few hours watching a movie called The Phantom of the Opera. Then I watched it again. And again. I didn't like the way Gerry sings most of the time, but he - even with a tormented face - looks heavenly good. The music is so beautiful and the end scene made me cry. Haha. I seem to be crying very often nowadays. I liked it very much and am ashamed I didn't go to the movies to see it to view it on big screen. There's one more thing: I can never go see it in the opera. For me, phantom's face will always be Gerry's.

The best part is when Christine is forced to make a choice between the Phantom and Raoul. She sings: "Angel of music" with such a feeling...

Pitiful creature of darkness
What kind of life have you known ?
God give me courage
to show you
you are not alone

Monday

Old Photographs


I went through some of my old stuff and found a bunch of pictures. I hate the memories they bring though they are pictures of moments of fun, love and caring. I hate them because it's all those pictures are: Memories.

I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you're there.

Thursday

First Thunder

Ok, so I was sitting at the computer with windows open when I heard the thunder. No lightnings yet and the front is already passing by. I hope it doesn't bring rain 'cause I was supposed to go biking before doing my homework and housework. Guess I won't be doing that today if it starts raining as much as it did the day before yesterday: it was pouring.

... Ok. It started raining. Figures.

Tune of the moment:

Ayumi Hamasaki - Still Alone (Warp Brothers Extended Mix)

kimi wa itsu mo konna basho de
konna keshiki wo mite
dore kurai no fuan to mayoi to
tatakatte'ta no?
hitori ni natte hajimete
wakaru koto ga ookute

Friday

So Beautiful

Dang.

Enough Natural Selection for me. I had a dream last night about my iguana xenosiding.

I was trying to do some school stuff last night (the day before due date of course) and I ended up downloading some mp3's. I came across with a song that just made me stop for awhile. Maybe it was about the frustration (WHY the hell can't Access support real SQL but the weirdy version of Microsoft?) or the fact that it was almost 4 am, but when I heard the song it just made tears rolling down my face. It was something so beautiful and I can't understand the weak moment I had.

Well, I guess I'll go and buy the whole album.

And I also found an excellent trance anthem: Sash - Together Again (Perfection Trance Remix 2005)

The lyrics of the tune of the day really don't mean that much, but the way that dude sings just makes my heart melt down.

The tune of today:

Lifehouse - Into the Sun

I never meant to let you go
Why did I leave maybe we'll never know
But I'm a man now broken on the ground
I'm in need and I think that it shows
All this time we're going nowhere and we know it
I was so blind
All the lights are leading to where you're going
I'm not far behind
And now we're running into the sun
Getting close to something into the sun
You know that we're falling
We're falling back into the sun

Monday

I'm so high I can hear heaven.

I had one of those crazy dreams again. I could modify a house any way I wanted - as in the Sims. I could move walls, make windows and stuff, then install myself in the scene. I've been playing too much sims 2 lately, it seems.

Well, my DreamGuy is back. As handsome as ever. It's funny how the dream guy has changed since I was a kid. Today he seems to be a mixture of all my favorite male types.

I should be working on some accounting stuff. But I'd rather be sleeping.

Oh, what a wake-up call this morning at nine: they were testing the general alarm systems of the city (the ones given in case of war, nuclear power plant accidents etc). I slept with my window open, so I really heard it and was like "WTF? did they launch the north Korean missile here? Shit. I have to take some water to the shelter!" I had a good laugh when I finally understood how silly I was.

I hope they will never sound the alarm for real.

Top 5 Males for May

1. Gerard Butler
Oh-my-god. I hope he's gay and no girl gets him.
2. Steven Brand
There's something in his eyes.
3. Colin Firth
He's butt ugly. But drop dead gorgeous.
4. Keanu Reeves
Do you remember him before the Matrix? I can.
5. Colin Farrel
Farrel as a SWAT dude gives me the hots.

Reviewing that list.. geez.. I'm 24. They're like- what- 40+?