I've slept almost the whole day. Horrible dreams! I was in love with J's friend and J was in love with L. I didn't want him and her be together so I slit her throat, cut very deep. I cut a small cut to J's throat and he started to choke in his own blood. Then I felt ill and pity -and woke up. It's hard to breathe, I guess that's why I had a nightmare.
That dream, however, made me think why the 2nd woman always get the hate, not the man?
When people were made, there were some pieces left - enough to make one more person. That's me. I'm leftovers.
Showing posts with label Nightmare. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Nightmare. Show all posts
Tuesday
Alone In The Dark
I'm still afraid to sleep alone.
As a kid, I used to make sure my covers were stuck under the matress and my toes firmly hidden. Most of the time, I couldn't sleep because of the random sounds the house made.
I still have nightmares, but for some reason they have gone from horrifying, sweat-breaking, screamily nightmares to stupid nightmares that won't bother me the next day.
For the next two nights I have to sleep alone. Most likely I'll keep the bathroom light on. Silly. I'm 28 ffs.
As a kid, I used to make sure my covers were stuck under the matress and my toes firmly hidden. Most of the time, I couldn't sleep because of the random sounds the house made.
I still have nightmares, but for some reason they have gone from horrifying, sweat-breaking, screamily nightmares to stupid nightmares that won't bother me the next day.
For the next two nights I have to sleep alone. Most likely I'll keep the bathroom light on. Silly. I'm 28 ffs.
Friday
Snow's Gone
The temperature is up to +4. The snow is almost gone. There's soft wind and sunshine. It used to be -15 this time of the year. So I guess winter's gone too. Greenhouse effect, anyone?
I'm cold.
Oh and I had the weirdest nightmare EVER! I don't remember much anymore since I've been up for eight hours now, but I remember the bit where there were worms in my veins and I cut little cuts and squeezed them out of me. I woke up itching, so I took a three-hour bath and changed the sheets. I have been watching some scary movies, but I skipped all the gory ones. I think the movies are not to blamed for this dream. I think it's Trauma Center - Second Opinion, which I've been playing on Wii. There's an operation where you have to make small cuts in order to get some nasty things out of a patient. I hate that game.
Speaking of games, We have bought only a few games for our Wii: Resident Evil 4, Raving Rabbids and Raving Rabbids TV Party, Fit and Sports. I love Raving Rabbids, I've had some of my best laughs playing Raving Rabbids 2 that we borrowed from one of J's friends. The balance board has been my favorite since I realized how to work my balance. Tip: Don't bother with the yoga, it will only make you frustrated or feel inadequate. Besides, Fit's Age calculator sucks. My body is 21 years old in it's opinion.
I'm cold.
Oh and I had the weirdest nightmare EVER! I don't remember much anymore since I've been up for eight hours now, but I remember the bit where there were worms in my veins and I cut little cuts and squeezed them out of me. I woke up itching, so I took a three-hour bath and changed the sheets. I have been watching some scary movies, but I skipped all the gory ones. I think the movies are not to blamed for this dream. I think it's Trauma Center - Second Opinion, which I've been playing on Wii. There's an operation where you have to make small cuts in order to get some nasty things out of a patient. I hate that game.
Speaking of games, We have bought only a few games for our Wii: Resident Evil 4, Raving Rabbids and Raving Rabbids TV Party, Fit and Sports. I love Raving Rabbids, I've had some of my best laughs playing Raving Rabbids 2 that we borrowed from one of J's friends. The balance board has been my favorite since I realized how to work my balance. Tip: Don't bother with the yoga, it will only make you frustrated or feel inadequate. Besides, Fit's Age calculator sucks. My body is 21 years old in it's opinion.
Monday
The Night In Hell
If all the bees on earth would die, the humans would follow four years later.
Fate, do you hear me? I swear I'll never take a swing at a bee again. Never.
Now, about my night in hell.
I woke up three times last night.
The first time I woke up to somebody calling my name, my first name, the one I don't use. I thought it was IHQ, but he was snoring his lungs out. But he only calls me by my nickname.
The second time I woke up, was that I just opened my eyes. The light from outside formed a cross on the wall. I was very freaked out and turned the light on. But the third time.. it took me almost two hours to be able to sleep again. I woke up to someone pulling my leg. Really pulling.
First I thought it was J kicking me in his dreams.. But he was facing the other way..It was pulling me outwards, so it wasn't a cramp. It was as if someone would be at the bedpost and pull. I was still really scared when I got to work. And the fact that I actually saw something in our livingroom, made it worse. I turned the TV on to watch good morning finland and then I saw something dark standing right outside the door. I thought it was J who came back to pick up something he forgot. I said hi and it was gone.
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Fate, do you hear me? I swear I'll never take a swing at a bee again. Never.
Now, about my night in hell.
I woke up three times last night.
The first time I woke up to somebody calling my name, my first name, the one I don't use. I thought it was IHQ, but he was snoring his lungs out. But he only calls me by my nickname.
The second time I woke up, was that I just opened my eyes. The light from outside formed a cross on the wall. I was very freaked out and turned the light on. But the third time.. it took me almost two hours to be able to sleep again. I woke up to someone pulling my leg. Really pulling.
First I thought it was J kicking me in his dreams.. But he was facing the other way..It was pulling me outwards, so it wasn't a cramp. It was as if someone would be at the bedpost and pull. I was still really scared when I got to work. And the fact that I actually saw something in our livingroom, made it worse. I turned the TV on to watch good morning finland and then I saw something dark standing right outside the door. I thought it was J who came back to pick up something he forgot. I said hi and it was gone.
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